I am worried for them. I know real ARMY will understand any dating scandal. I don't know what should I do. I don't know if I really deserve this kind of attention Jungkook giving me. I'm not worried for myself but for Jungkook. Life should not be like this for all idols we stan. They are also human who have feelings. We should not deprived them with that. I hope things get better soon.
"How are you there?" I got a message from Jungkook, he should not worry about me
"I'm fine here. Don't worry. How about you?"
"The management will answer all the rumors. They will release that I'm not dating yet."
"Its better not to put 'yet'. People will think you are really seeing someone. I'm sorry. I think its my fault if I was the one who got our breakfast earlier then this should not happened"
"Its not anyone fault. Its okay and I'm really seeing someone-its you. Remember?"
"We still don't know how things will work with us."
"I'm sure about you. I don't want to rush you and whatever your decision is I will respect it. I will wait for you"
I didn't reply. I needed time to think and I should listen to the speaker. I'm the luckiest girl alive now but I still need to think about the consequences of dating him. I'm not gonna be the hard to get girl type but I want to make sure that this is what I want to have. I want to make sure if the feelings I have right now is for someone I can call a man or its only a feeling of a fangirl. I don't want to hurt him. This thing was every fan could die for but now that I'm here, I still need to think. I'm not a pushover nor did he is.
He told me that he will understand no matter what my decision is, I want to take this chance also while I'm alone and not with him. I do like him as my idol and I also like the fact that he liked me as a lady. I want to like him as a man and not someone I idolize. I don't want to go to the point where all my feelings for him is just an infatuation, it will hurt him.
"I'm almost done with the convention." I messaged Jungkook since he asked me if I'm almost done with my work. I check my social media and I can tell that no one know that it is me. My social media is so peaceful, thank God.
I am waiting at the basement and Jungkook told me a new plate number, I guess he is using a different car now. This will be the last night I will have with Jungkook he is leaving tomorrow. I want to use this time to decide also. I don't want to give him the assurance that is not worth waiting for. I want to be keen and precise towards him.
"How are you?" I asked him as soon as I get in the car.
"I told you a million times that you should not worry about me. I'm fine. Don't stress yourself so much about it. I am more worried for you than myself."
"You should not worry about me. As long as you're here always remember that I got your back also. We are on this together."
"You know that I'm leaving tomorrow, right?"
"Yes. That's why I've decided that we should only enjoy tonight and don't think about unnecessary things."
"I like that but we need to have dinner with the members, they been asking me to bring you over dinner. They are worried about you."
I remembered what I've heard this morning.
"Jungkook, can I ask you something weird? Hahaha" I just laughed it so it doesn't sound so-so weird
"Hmmm?" He answered me while his eyes busy on the road
"What if...hmm nevermind"
"Hey, what is it?"
"I don't want to sound big headed or anything.. but what if one of the members also like me?"
"What do you mean?"
"What if one your hyungs like me?"
"I don't know" he answered me with a cold tone and sigh a bit
"I'm just asking no need to over think things, okay?"
"But.. if ever it does happen, I'm gonna give you up...no not you but I should give up my feelings for you."
"Even if I like you enough?"
"Yes, it will hurt the both of us but I can't imagine fighting with them over a woman. I have no choice to give up what I'm feeling. Remember, they are my family. They are the one who's been there. They guided me in every way they know."
Jungkook's words really amaze me every time. His love for his brothers is really not a joke. He will do everything for them. I should not think about Jimin's word since he was just infatuated to the fact that I'm the only ARMY they met up close.
"Y/N HOW ARE YOU?!!!" A shout greeted me and of course it is J-hope
"Hi! I'm fine. Ho about you guys? Did you get a lot of rest?"
"Yes. We are worried for you. Thank God no one take a photo of you." Jin
"I told Jungkook not to get a room service at your hotel because I expect this to happen." RM
"The management scolded him real hard. Hahahaha" Taehyung jokingly blurted that made me worry for JK
"But I'm okay" Jungkook trying to convince me that he is okay
"I'm gonna miss you guys." I told them since I know that they are leaving tomorrow
"Jungkook told me that he asked for you to come, is that true?" Suga
"Yes, but not tomorrow I still have work to do."
"When are you coming with us?" Jimin
"Maybe a month after? I don't know"
"Can Jungkook last not seeing you that long?" Jimin
"He should hahaha its fine with me if he will forget about me." I teasingly mocked JK
"If he can't wait for you, I am." Jimin blurted out with a serious tone and leave me speechless I don't know how will I react to that. Did he meant it?
"You like to joke around haha" I hope the land will eat me alive I cannot answer him properly
"What do you mean hyung?" Jungkook
This is what I didn't expect to happen tonight. For Jungkook to find out about what I asked him earlier.
"I'm just kidding. Hahahaha" He laughed as if nothing happened
"I thought you like her hyung. It made me nervous."
"Let's eat, I'm hungry." RM
Jungkook gave me food and we are enjoying the food when Taehyung ask me if I like Jungkook already.
"Is that a question? Hahaha I like all of you of course, I'm a fan duuh"
"But... do you like him as a man?"
I look at Jungkook and willingly told him.
"Yes"
