Blow us all Away

Chapter 6 (Jess)

I woke up feeling a bit disorientated again, I wasn't sure what I would be doing today but I knew that Lin had a plan. I got up and snuck in and out of the bathroom so I wouldn't wake anyone. I checked my phone for the time, it was only 6:00 am I went back to sleep since I was still tired.

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I felt someone shaking me, confused I opened my eyes to see Lin there with a worried expression on his face.

"Are you ok? You were crying in your sleep and flinching a lot!" He asked me, I didn't know what to say to him, I didn't want him to know about my past before Nina let me stay with her for the last month.

"I- um yeah I'm ok, just a bad dream." I lied, knowing it was a flashback from my last foster home

"Ok, do you want breakfast? I'm making pancakes!" Lin told me excitedly, I nodded knowing that he was still not convinced but I was glad that he dropped it.

"I'll be out in a sec," I replied, still not fully recovered from the flashback.

With that Lin left the room, closing my door behind him. I started crying as soon as I heard the door shut. I had never had a flashback before, I don't know what I would do next time it happened.

I hugged my legs up to my chest and cried until I couldn't anymore, I didn't want to face the world like this, so I just stayed in my room for a while until I heard a knock at the door. I quickly wiped my eyes so it wouldn't be that obvious that I have been crying.

"Come in," I said quietly but loud enough to be heard.

"Pancakes are ready, then I have to go to the theatre later if you want to come." Lin told me, I wasn't sure if he could tell that I had been crying or not, "Hey, are you ok?" He asked me.

"Um yeah, I think so, thanks," I said quietly looking down

"You know you can talk to me about anything right?" He told me, with a worried expression on his face. All I could do was nod.

We left the room to have breakfast, it was so good! After I got up and got ready, I didn't try as much as yesterday but I still felt a little weird around everyone to be wearing sweats. I ended up wearing jeans and an oversized Hamilton hoodie, with some winged eyeliner and my hair out because it was actually cooperating today.

We left shortly afterwards, he once again encouraged me to put on my music, so I did. We were singing all the songs together, it felt nice, and it was a good bonding time. I brought my phone, book, headphones, a few notebooks and new pencils and pens, I also brought some framed photos to put in the spare room.

We finally got to the theatre, for some reason I felt more awkward than yesterday and I was still shaken up from the dream. I went straight up to the spare room after quickly saying hello to everyone. I didn't know if Lin knew that I was in a bad mood or why.

As soon as I closed the door I plugged in my headphones and put on my sad music so I could just be and cry. I could hear them starting rehearsals ten minutes after we got there, I realised that no one was going to come to see if I was ok. I was alone.

Jazzy must have not been doing anything because she came up to hang out. I didn't really want to talk to anyone at the moment, so I was quiet and stayed on my phone until she broke the silence.

"Hey, you ok Jess, you've been quieter than usual," she pointed out.

"Yeah, just tired, couldn't sleep much probably because of the time difference," I said, not wanting to tell her the full thing.

"You know you can tell me anything right, I won't even tell Lin if you don't want me to." She reassured me just as Anthony came in to get her for rehearsals.