Five years of yearning

Do I deserve this kind of pain

Sam dragged him in the washroom and closed the door behind . After noticing that Sam closed the door, Zhou Shu Yi's heart suddenly pounds in an indescribable fear as he run to the door to open it  but halfway Sam grabbed him by the waist and pin him on the side of washbasin . Both of their faces facing towards mirror as they looked each other in the mirror.

Sam heaved softly near his ear as the warm breath brushed damply over Zhou Shu Yi's neck . Zhou Shu Yi shuddered involuntary in his grasp as the old feeling started  rushing back . His closed lashes was trembling.

Sam realized that the body of the other person was getting tense by passing each second. He could clearly feel the racing heartbeat of Zhou Shu Yi and could sense the hidden fear inside his heart.

He didn't want to scare him at the first place. So he controlled himself and loosen his grip a little bit and said while looking into the mirror at him , " I ....uh..I'm sorry, for everything happened. "

As soon as Zhou Shu Yi heard that sorry from his mouth, he suddenly snapped open his eyes and turn around to look at Sam's face. 

The pain of last five years suddenly became so vivid as he looked at that face with red eyes. All the emotions he had to bury deep down started to emerge on his face one by one.

This was something he longed once the most in his entire life. That Gao Shi De would come back and say that word to him. To say that he regretted to leaving him and finding love in other , that he feel so guilty to give him all the suffering and the pain.

Sam got confused by that look on Zhou Shu Yi's face at first. He never saw anyone with that painful and pathetic emotion before. But more than being confused he got panicked 'cause suddenly he felt like his heart was stabbed with hundreds of knives. Piercing deep into the very soft point. He didn't know but suddenly he got an impulse to touch the other's face .

But before he could access his own thoughts,  his hand was already covered Zhou Shu Yi's eyes as he murmured softly, " Don't look at me like that . My heart stings. "

Zhou Shu Yi sniffled softly as he removed his hand from his eyes. He asked as his voice trembled slightly, " what did you just say? "
"Sorry? "

"Yeah! Aren't you angry with me because I took your office and I...uh  ( sam hesitate a bit) I hold your hand earlier infront of all so...look I know you have every right to be pissed  but what I'm saying is...

"Wait! " Zhou Shu Yi stopped him in the  middle as he said with an  unbelievable face, " you are sorry just because of that office thing"?

Sam perplexed as he stated, " of course! Then what the hell I supposed to be sorry about? "

Zhou Shu Yi pushed him away as he yelled angrily, " Do you really think I'm fuckin mad at you just because of this? "

Gao Shi De again came closer and grabbed his punching hand as he said in a grave tone, " Well , I don't think so. There's must be something else. You seriously have problems with me because after that day we met first time you're acting like I owed you a million dollars or something.

I don't quite get it, why you always pissed off whenever you see me.
Is my face remind you someone else? An old enemy or ... or......a... lover....?"

Zhou Shu Yi's whole face turned pale in madness as he heard what the other just said .  He couldn't even believe on his own ears. His anger was getting worse by passing each second.

He chuckled  as he said, " I don't believe this. "

As he told he started to  come closer to Sam. At this Sam baffled and started backing off till his back banged with the door behind.