Be careful

Getting Drunk

Saturday, I went into work, since I was underage to sell liquor, I was working at the cashier till the liquor selection opened. After noon past, I went to take care of the stocking in the back of the store. I lift a box of liquor up to a shelf as I placed it down, I was grabbed by my arm. Lyle dragged me by my arm and brought me into the staff bathroom. I screamed to try and get someone's attention. He covered my mouth with his left hand. He started to undo the buckle of his pants with his free hand. I froze this could not be happening once again. My full body went numb, I could not move a limb. After he finished, he left once again as if nothing had happened.

About ten minutes later I made my way out of the bathroom. I went back to the front of the store where Lyle was hanging out with one of my co-workers. ''Hayden you're such a slut'' He commented as I walked in. That meant he told him about how he 'got some' from me and my co-worker was most likely the one to let him to the back of the store in the first place.

Jocelyn picked me up after work and saw that I was bothered by something, she did not ask any questions, but demanded that she brings me to this party tonight. When Josie has something in mind you cannot say no, her mind is made up you cannot change it. She brought me over and got me all glammed up for our night out at this party that was going to brighten up my day. She dressed me up in a one shoulder body suit with a copper-colored skirt with black heals.

She pulled her car up to the big driveway filled with cars. We had to park our car 3 houses down the street. The house was beautiful it was one of those you would see in the movies that the rich people lived in. I did not even know who was hosting the party, but Jocelyn has connections with everyone. We made it up to the front door and I was trembling. ''Are we supposed to knock'' I asked, looking confused on what we were supposed to do. ''Do you think they could hear our knock over this loud music'' She replied laughing about my stupid comment. She opened the door, walked in as If it was her own house. This was not her first rodeo, but it was sure mine.

We have been here for about 2 hours, and I was down my 10th drink. I did not want to remember anything of this night by tomorrow. I could feel the base of the music going through my body. I was stumbling all over the place and had lost Jocelyn in the big crowd of people. She was supposed to be looking over me, she was my designated driver for the night since she said she was not going to drink. ''Aha, I found you'' I said as I caught my eye on Josie on the dance floor grinding up on a guy. I was sneaking my way through the crowd to get to her. A tall guy slid himself right in my path. I tried to look over his shoulder to not lose my friend out of my sight ''Woah, woah slow down princess'' Is the only thing I heard. I woke up in a lot of pain, in this room. Jocelyn and a couple of other random guys were carrying me to her car. The night was officially over.

The next day I was hung over to death. I did not want to move an inch. I lay in bed the whole day; I was tied down to my bed. My mom came and checked on me a couple of times. She gave me some medication to try and help with the pain I was having but nothing was working I spent the rest of the day sleeping or just looking at the ceiling counting sheep.

Over the next few days, it had finally sunk in. I mentally shut down, I wanted to stay in my room all day and not see the outside world. The sun was the worst thing I could feel on my skin. I just wanted to say in the safe place of my own home. I wanted to listen to music until I could not hear my breath anymore. Each morning it was a battle to get up and go to school. I was acting fine, and I think that no one cached on that I was not. I did not know what I was going to do anymore. Life is so difficult, and I was doing all this alone. I did not know if I wanted to tell anyone I just wanted it to go all away and forget about it and move on and live my normal life. I just wanted to run away, but I could not just leave my whole life, family, and friends behind. My only hide away was my special place at the stream. I spent the whole nights after school there, but tonight something seemed off. I felt like there was eyes on me, like someone was looking at me. The whole time I was looking over my shoulder creeping myself out even more I decided to go home and just go to sleep and forget about it all.

I could not sleep, I felt like there was someone close that was not supposed to be there. It felt like someone, or something followed me from the stream to my house. I was paranoid, I kept freaking myself in my own head. By the time I calmed down and fell asleep, it was about 3 am till I was sound asleep. I was sleeping like a baby nothing could possibly wake me up.

Except the sound of something rambling in my room. I tired to open my eyes, but my eyelids were so heavy. From what I could see there was a tall person sitting on the edge of my bed. I tried to move, to scream, to do anything but I could not I was weak. I felt sleepy but I did not want to fall asleep with someone in my room watching me. I felt drunk but I do not remember taking any alcohol since the party. I was going in and out of consciousness.

The next morning, I woke up confused. My whole body was in pain. My clothes were on the floor torn. I could vaguely remember last night. I put sweats and an oversized t-shirt on. I sat on the edge of my bed, and I remembered seeing someone sitting there last night. I could not tell who it was I could not see his face. I could feel his hands going up my legs. He was trailing kisses down my stomach. I felt the feeling of something being inside me and the sound of a man grunting in my ear. I could not breathe anymore, I felt like I was being choked and then suffocated. I was laying on my stomach with my head in a pillow with my butt up in the air.

''Hayden! Hayden!'' I heard far in the distance. The banging brought me back to real life. ''Hayden are you okay?'' I heard my mom say from the other side of the door. ''Yeah, why? Come in'' I said, confused on why she was so worried over me. ''Sweetheart your door is locked I cannot'' She replied sounding even worried. I did not know what was going on I never lock my door. I started to walk to my door and was tripping over everything on the floor. My mom opened the door, and my back was faced to her I was admiring the mess I had just made. My room was a disaster my dresser was flipped, everything on my shelves were on the floor, there was broken glass everywhere. I fell to the ground crying I could not do this anymore. My mom holds me and tells me everything was going to be okay. ''I got rapped'' I quietly admitted to my mom. She started crying with me.

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