Sinful Graditude

Warnings

Saturday came, I decided to stay home not only to have alone time but just to think out loud for once without any disturbance. I thought all day and night about what Michelle was telling me, At first the whole thing confused me so much. What did she mean when she said he had the hot's for me, and why me I didn't wanna put myself down but I knew Mr.Addams could do way better than me. I didn't see myself as his type and besides that I did nothing to Mr.Addams in anyway for him to be sexual attracted to me. I sat down and thought of all the signs and realized Michelle was right in a way. He did always stare at me whenever I looked up in class, but maybe he did that to all his students right? I continued thinking of other signs. I could hear Michelle's voice in my head "he will start inviting you to his house, or touching your thigh" I covered my mouth in awe, she was right again. Maybe he did like me, I know it was weird for a teacher to do so but why was she warning me so much I barely knew this girl and she warned me like death was close. Going into my purse and still thinking I reached for my phone and called my parents to tell them everything was great, I had to lie because of the situation but I was completely honest. At the moment I was getting straight A's besides Mr.Addams class in general I was doing fine in my classes. After being on the phone with my parents I got up and got dressed to get something to eat, before I left the house my phone began to ring. I picked up my phone and read in bold white letters private number. What the hell? I thought then I slide the answer bar.

Alison: um hello?

Mr.Addams: Hello Alison, It's steve I'm calling to see if everything was okay.

Alison: Um, yes sir I mean steve, everything is great, why do you ask?

Mr.Addams- you never showed up, so I wanted to know if everything was okay.

Alison- yes everything is fine, thanks for calling

Mr.Addams- Wait before you go, I wanted to again invite you over. The tutoring is still going on but a few students left for the night, Would you still be interested?

I stayed quiet for a second and bit my lip, rethinking of Michelle again and again, I took in a deep breath and tried to ignore her to prove to her she was wrong, but in some way I did want this. This teacher and student relationship. It sounded odd but the idea was amazing to me, after thinking I remembered we were on the phone so I spoke again.

Alison- Yea, yes I'll stop by can you text me the address?

Mr.Addams- of course, thank you and see you there.

I closed the phone, and felt that nervous feeling again, why was I always so nervous around him?. I grabbed my sweater tucked my hair under my hood and headed outside, It wasn't cold at all just windy, I zippered up my sweater and called for a taxi.

I showed the taxi driver the address and, he laughed and asked "rich relative"? What? I said and looked at the message. "Do you have a rich relative that live there"? He asked while driving. "No"? I answered. "Why do you ask" I said still looking through my messages. "One of the richest places to live in here in California, must be nice eh"? He said still driving. "Yea, guess it is" I answered then looked out the window. When we arrived I looked out to see how big the house was. "This must be the wrong address" I said still looking out. "Well if it is or isn't it's still 30 bucks" "oh yea sorry" I gave him the money and walked out. When the car drove away I still stared in awe on how big this house was. I felt a huge pit in my stomach, I can't do this I thought the pit in my stomach grew bigger I almost threw up. I looked around one last time then started to walk back onto the road. "Hmmm, leaving already?" I heard then turned around to see it was Mr.Addams behind me. He looked so dreamy, hair tucked back with a pulled up button blue shirt, he looked so dressed up I thought "Oh, Mr.addams I wasn't leaving I was just --" "it's okay if you were" he said interrupting me. "I saw the way you looked at the house he said walking next to me then pointing at the house. "and knew you had a bad feeling about it, everyone does well then take care" he said putting his hands in his pocket and walking away. I felt bad, I always gave Mr.Addams the cold shoulder and maybe Michelle was wrong, maybe he was just friendly, Maybe I wasn't his "one" and she just said those things because it all happened to her before. He always seemed to smile at every student all the time. Thinking these thoughts made me reconsider. "Wait!" I said. "Yes?" He said "Um, maybe I can stay for awhile" I said smiling. "Good" he said and smiled.