HER NIKOLAI (Her Volkovs Book 1)

Chapter 23. Let's Go Home.

And I remember when I met him, it was so clear that
he was the only one for me.
We both knew it, right away.
And as the years went on, things got more difficult --
we were faced with more challenges.
I begged him to stay. Try to remember what
we had at the beginning. He was charismatic, magnetic,
electric and everybody knew it. When he walked in
every woman's head turned, everyone stood up
to talk to him. He was like this hybrid, this mix of
a man who couldn't contain himself.
I always got the sense that he became torn
between being a good person and
missing out on all of the opportunities that life could
offer a man as magnificent as him.
And in that way I understood him
and I loved him.
I loved him, I loved him, I loved him.
And I still love him.
I love him.

-Lana del Rey. I Still Love Him monologue

Broken is Nikolai's song. The monologue above describes Belle's feelings towards Nikolai.

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"B, I already booked our flight home. It's going to be two days from now so we would still have time to wrap things up from work etc."

Amy and I are already packing our luggage in her room.

"Aren't you going to tell me what happened?" Said Amy.

"I have nothing to tell you A." If I tell her about what happened I don't know if she's going to forgive me, Nikolai or Alexei.

"Where did you sleep last night?"

"At a hotel."

"Why?" Dammit Amy!

"A, can you please let this one go?"

My heart jumped when Amy's mood suddenly changed.

"No! I moved all the way here just to make sure you're okay. Hell I even left Ana, my sick mother, just to make sure you are fine. You cant just brush me off like this!"

I feel like my heart is being crushed. I did not answer my bestfriend. I continued collecting my things.

"Arabella! You don't get to do this to me!" Amy is now hysterical.

"I said I don't want to talk about it Amy! I'm sorry for taking you away from Ana. We are going home so you can attend to her."

"You one selfish bitch!!!!!" Amy said screaming at me. "Just yesterday you chose to be with your gangster boyfriend and now that things went awry you just decide to suddenly go home without even giving me any explanation? The past few weeks, my life had been dependent on your decisions B!!! You at least owe me honesty!"

I can't stand it any longer. I feel like I'm being choked so I walked away from her.

"Yes, that's right! Get lost again so everyone will get out of their way just to look for you."

I took a halt and went to face Amy. Her arms are now intertwined in front of her and she's full on bitch mode.

"Did I ask you to come and move here A? No! Did I ask for your help when I was at my lowest? No! Did I tell Dylan to get me from the motel? No! Did I ask Nikolai and Alexei to look for me A? No!!! Nikolai broke my heart so I wanted to move on with my life. I never dragged you into this! I never dragged anyone into this. You made a choice!"

Amy and I are in the middle of an argument when all of a sudden the doorbell rang. Good riddance.

I walked away from Amy and went to the main door. My eyes widened when I see Yuri, he's wearing his usual black suit and his serious self.