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I am Jailyn, a seventeen years old collage student, I have the most perfect life that a girl will want.
I have a big and happy family, Im studying at the most popular university in the country and most of all I have the sweetest, kindess and very handsome boyfriend!
"Babe!" opps speaking of my prince.
"Hi, babe!" I said then kiss him on the cheek, he did the same.
"How was your game? sorry I didn't make it" sabi ko pagkatapos kong ipalupot ang kamay ko sa bewang nya.
"It's ok, the game is fine we won" he said then fake a smile.
"Are you mad?"
"No"
"But you look like one" I said then bow my head, I know that its my fault, nakipag-party pa kasi ako kagabi kahit na alam kong may game sila ngayon.
"Hey! I told you its fine, I understand, its your bestfriend's birthday last night" sabi nya tsaka hinawakan ang baba ko at itinaas ng bahagya ang mukha ko para magkasalubong ang mga mata namin.
"Yeah! but I should atleast try to wake up early, to be honest.....I forgot about it" I said as I bow my head once again, but he just did the same thing that he did a few seconds ago, but this time he did it for our lips will meet each other.
"I love you, and I understand, dont worry" he said smiling so I also smile.
"I love you too, Jake" then I hug him.
Many days, weeks and months have passed and we become stronger....I thought so but one day he just.....………………………………………change.
The sweet words he always told me, his guestures, his eyes that looking at me with love, and the kiss and hug that's full of love it all change.
"Babe, ok ka lang?" I ask while we were on our way home.
"Huh? yeah" he said then smile.
"Were here na" he said then stop the car in front of our house.
"Thanks" I said looking at him, but he didn't even bother to look at me, Im hurting inside, he is being colder and colder every singel day.
"Why? di ka pa ba bababa?" he said and that totaly hit me.
Dati pinagbubuksan nya ako ng pinto ng kotse nya, or minsan i-ki-kiss nya muna ako bago bumaba ng kotse.
I fake a smile and open the door.
"Oh! I forgot something!" napangiti ako tsaka humarap sa kanya.
"Hmm?"
"I can't pick you up tommorow, busy sched, bye!" my smile suddenly fades away.
"O-ok" I said then, go out.
At pagkababa ko, pinaharurot nya na agad ang sasakyan, ni hindi man lang tumingin or nag-wave man lang.
My tears starts to fall, what is happening to him? to us?
Why he's so cold? what did I do wrong?
And so many question come in my mind.
As the days passed by, I even forget when is the last time I saw him, he didn't say anything.
He did not text or call me, he didn't show up at school or even in my house, his gone, totaly.
I dont care where the hell he is, all I wanna know is why? so many why, like
why he left me?
why he didn't even tell anybody where he is?
why he cant just tell me that he dont want me anymore?
A year later I was walking on a sidewalk and it was a saturday night, I didn't told my parents that Im going home I told them that we need to finish a project and it need a overnight to finish it, but the trurth is I just want to be alone.
"J-Jailyn?" a masculine and familiar voice call my name in a dark corner of the street.
I felt my heart skip a beat when I saw his handsome face.
"J-jake?" all the bad words I wanna tell him, all the crazy things that I plan to do when I saw him, like slap him or kick him, they're all gone.
All I wanna do is to hug him tight, so tight that he cant go.
"K-kamusta?" tanong nya.
"O-ok lang naman, namiss kita ah"
"Jailyn"
"Alam ko, ok lang, joke lang naman, pero meron lang naman akong gustong sabihin"
"A-ano yun?"
"Sana kung ayaw mo na, sinabi mo na lang, alam mo naman di ko kayang nahihirapan ka diba? kasi kung ayaw mo na, ako na lang yung lalayo, pero ngayon alam ko na na ayaw mo na" tsaka na ako naglakad at nilagpasan sya.
Sunod-sunod na tumulo ang mga luha ko.
Sabi ko nuon sa sarili ko hindi na ako iiyak ng dahil sa kanya.
At kapag nagkita kami, sasampalin ko sya at mumurahin, pero ngayon, lahat yun, lahat-lahat, nawala.
Nanlamig ang buong katawan ko sa pagpatak ng malakas na ulan.
Lalo kong ibinuhos lahat ng sakit na nararamdaman ko, buti pa ang ulan nakikisama sa akin.
Siguro may mahal ka ng iba ngayon no?
Mahal mo pa ba ako?
Minahal mo ba ako?
Nagkulang ba ako?
Ginawa ko naman lahat para sayo diba?
Kung ayaw mo na, sana sinabi mo na lang.
Alam mo namang ayaw kong nahihirapan ka.
Kung ayaw mo na ako na lang ang lalayo.
Ganon kita kamahal Jake.
Napahinto ako sa gitna ng pedestrian lane ng may biglang yumakap sa akin mula sa likod.
"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry, Jailyn, you dont deserve me, I am jerk, you deserve someone who is better than me" bulong nya.
I can see all the cars that passing by but I dont give a damn.
"Yes, I deserve better than you, but god! I dont need anybody Jake, all I need is you, but you, you just left me, left me without any singel word, and yet Im still in love with you" I said the moment I face him.
"I love you, Jake, I still love you, but if you think you dont want me anymore, please, wag ka ng lumapit, di ko na kakayanin" but instead of answering he just grab my face then kiss me.
I dont know how long our kiss lasts.
When he finally let go of me, I look into his deep black eyes.
"Why?" I ask.
"Sometimes you have to give up something you want, for it to grow, I love you, Jailyn" he whisper then he let go and start to walk away.
"Sometimes you have to give up something you want, for it to grow, I love you, Jailyn"
What does he mean?
"Jake!" I called him but he continue walking.
"Jake!" I called him again and this time I run after him but after a few steps I stop and my heartbeat also stop when I saw a light coming.
"Ahhhhhhh!"
"Jailyn!" Jake shouts.
The next thing I knew I was lying on the concreat sidewalk, my body feel so numb, my breath is getting heavier everytime.
"Jailyn, Jailyn dont leave me, Jailyn wake up!" I heard him say.
"Y-you...you dont want me to leave you, but you....leave me"
"Jailyn Im sorry, I have to, If I dont leave you, you'll just get hurt, Jailyn, ako dapat ang mauuna, hindi ikaw! Jailyn!" I felt his tears falling in my face.
"You dont want me, Ayaw mo na diba?"
"Jailyn" his tears keeps on falling.
"I love you, now I let you go.."
"No, Jai, listen to me, I love you, ok? I love you, dont leave me, fine! I take the theraphy, just....just dont leave me, I will fight agains my cancer just please, please"
"Im happy your now telling me, I...I will wait for you there, Jake"
"No,no,no, listen to me, we will live ok? you and I, we will get merried pa diba, Jailyn"
"I'll wait for you, I love you Jake"
I was walking in a very beautiful place full of flowers, there are so many beautiful things in this world, it is almost perpect but there's just one thing that keeping me sad.
I look up and said.
"What took you so long Jake?"
"Jailyn!" a familiar voice shouts.
I look at the guy on my back, he smiles at me.
"I'm home" he said, my tears starts to fall.
...THE END....
