What Now? - Confused

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I think im crazy, but really, am i? 

Or am i just a FOOL IN LOVE?

Can i be crazy for "falling in love"... again??

But he's different...

Well i guess that's what they all seemed to be... DIFFERENT

I think im stupid... but really, am i?

Or am i just too easily attached to persons to the point where if they dont communicate with me... i feel.. INCOMPLETE... like a part of my life.. my fragile heart.. is missing

I think im confused.. but really, am i? 

Or am i just misunderstanding these emotions? This situation?

What if he's just like the rest? Or even worse?

What if.. he doesn't feel the same way about me as i feel about him?

What if he doesn't look at my pictures and smile?

What if he doesnt even care?

What if he's taken?

What if i dont even matter in his universe?

But if he didnt... why would he be texting me? Continuously? At wee hours in the night?

What if it is because at that time, the one who has his heart, is sleeping?

What if he didnt mean anything he said?

BUT....... 

 What if im all he thinks about? ALL DAY? Maybe that's why he has to text me before he goes to bed, to keep me on his mind, in his thoughts, in his dreams?

What if he writes my name on everything when i dance across his mind... like i do?

What if he's not taken but he's actually wondering if im THE ONE? or maybe, as he said, he's shy?

What if he's THE ONE?

What if fate brought us together so our paths could cross?

What if he actually loves me? As much as i love him? But really... WHAT IS LOVE?

WHAT IF WE'RE PERFECT? 

So many questions, so many feelings, a thousand thoughts for one person.... But he isnt mine, and he'll never be mine... So.... WHAT NOW?

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