Insomnia has taken over my fragile being
I can no longer sleep as my mind goes 100 km per second
I need help
I know I'm not crazy because I can admit I need help
But I can't admit that I need help
This feeling Im experiencing
Is like a cross between depression, anxiety, hurt, and extreme sadness
I feel as though the entire world is on my shoulders
I'm just going through the motions
I want to cry
I want to scream
Even die!
I wish my pleads for help wouldn't go in vain
You don't listen
You seem not to care, anymore
I'm here .. But im not here
I'm tired of writing my feelings in a book
Its killing me mentally
Please listen to me without judging me !!
The bags under my eyes are getting worse
Oh, you haven't noticed
They see me smiling
But they don't know what I feel inside
What's left of this shattered heart
Is now starting to shatter
What does that leave me with ? I often ask myself
Nothing!
I don't want to burden you
I don't wish to be the mistake you are paying for
The child you don't need
Another human being just wasting precious air
'Cause that's how I feel
I want to be loved
My inner being longs for your love.. Or something that will make me feel complete
I wish they could all see how badly I'm hurting
Yet still
I mange to paste a smile on my face
I can't fully comprehend how my drained being
Can still find the strength to smile
But it isn't a real smile... It's only a façade
I will never be able to fill this void in my life
I leave that to the God of the Universe
But for now, all I need is for you to reverse this feeling
Xoxo Lonner
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Poems for Anonymous
PoesiaThis is just a collection of poems or paragraphs that i wrote. Some of them are about me, some aren't. It's really just a thing i do in my spare time. Hope you like it.
