London Eye

Chapter 28: We're all going mad.

"Lou I-"

"When did you find out?" He had concern in his tone.

"Well I- when I went to get a check up at the same time Violette find out about the gender of the twins. He said that the cancer has spread through about 35% of my body."

"Wh-" Lou swallowed, "What's the chance of you living?" You could hear how heart broken Lou was and to be honest, that broke my heart the most. It was going to kill me to tell Violette because all the shit going on in her life right now. I'd hate to make her even more sad but no one should ever feel sad because of me. I should be no one's pain because I'm honestly not worth it.

"They said I have a 20% chance of living." I sniffed. More loud and strangled sobs escaped his lips and I wrapped my arms around him.

"I can't lose you." Lou said through tears.

"Natalie?" I heard a familiar voice from the door. I shot my head around to see the source of the voice and so did Lou.

The voice came from Violette. By the door stood Violette, Riley, and the guys. Usually if Lou cried he would try to make an effort to look tough in front of the guys but he did nothing to look tough in front of them. Instead, just holding me, his cheeks stained with tears and his body shaking from his light sobs.

I can't tell Violette yet. I can't deal with all these people crying over me when I was really just wasting their time.

Louis could do much better than me, yet he still chose me. Why? It makes no sense to me.

"Violette-"

"Why is Louis crying?" She asked, concern laced in her soft voice.

I can't do this anymore. It is too much to handle.

"Nat?" I know I am going to miss my best friend's nickname for me. I will miss calling her Viola. I'll miss all our memories. Our mall trips, sleepovers, heart breaks, just our conversations. But most of all, I'll miss my bestfriend.

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Violette's Pov

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What is going on? I'm so confused. I can't function. My mind is telling me to rush over to one of my  best friends who I have known for years, whether it's Louis or Natalie, and comfort them, but my feet think otherwise and keep me bolted in place, Harry's big hands resting on my hips from behind me as if to tell me "whatever goes on right now, you still have me."

And that's what I tell myself. I will lose so much, so damn much and I have. I lost my dad just yesterday. I lost my mom 5 years ago. I almost lost my life yesterday and freshman year. I can't lose anymore. I've lost so many people in my life. Am I doing something wrong to make everyone leave me?

"Violette I-" Natalie cuts herself off and a choked sob leaves Louis' mouth. They didn't break up because they are holding each other so what happened? Why is Louis crying? I have never seen Louis cry before.

"Natty what's wrong?" Riley says and bends down to be eye level with Nat and Lou. Riley is a great person to comfort someone. She is just genuine and knows the right words to say.

Louis' and Natalie's crys fill our silence and Natalie finally gulps before hearing the words I never thought would leave hee lips.

"I-I have cancer." She gulped again before taking a shaky breath.

I can't say anything. It's like my lips are moving but nothing is coming out. It's like time has stopped and I am forced to face the fact that my friend will possibly die. It's like I was stabbed and they are just jiggling the knife inside me deeper, poking at my insides.