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Chapter 13: My Miracle.

"It all started in the 4th grade..." My words trailed off and the horrid memories of my past came rolling back in my mind.

"So you know how my dad left me when I was 5... ever since than I wasn't the same person.. So 4th grade... I was transferred schools because we moved.. I thought this school would be so fun and I would love making new friends and just the thrill of meeting new people.. I met new people.. but it wasn't exactly the new people I wanted to meet. They told me I was their best friend and that they were never going to leave because I was the new girl.

I was so glad I made new friends. One day one of my so called 'friends' told me that I was ugly and I had the body of an 8 year old boy. That made me so insecure. It's funny how just a few words can change your whole perspective about yourself.." I wiped the tear I didn't realize I had. And prepared myself for what I was going to say next.

"I had never told Niall or my mum about this because I knew if I did those kids would just make it worse. I never stood up for myself.. I kind of just accepted all the hate I was getting which was probably the worst thing I could've done... So in 5th grade things got kind of out of hand... the same girl that called me those names were still one of the people I hung out with.

One day I got so mad at her for calling me a slut that I yanked her blonde hair.. I didn't know what I was thinking... I knew I couldn't take her... I knew I had no chance against her.." I gulped.

"She fought back. She punched me in the face and I kicked her and knocked her to the ground.. When she got up she pushed me down and her and the rest of her friends kicked me and punched me until I coughed up blood.

They dragged me over to a wall and began to insult me.. they said I wasn't good enough... they said I should just kill myself so they wouldn't have to see my face anymore... They didn't know how literally I took that...

I was expelled from school and had to change schools. I couldn't go back to school for a week so that I could heal.

The thing is... I didn't want to heal... I wanted my life to be over..

I went in my laundry room and grabbed the bleach... I drank some of it hoping I would die.

I didnt... I was saved by the poison control... even though I told them I didn't want to live... they ignored me and told me they were trying there hardest to save me...

I shouted at them saying I have nothing to live for please just let me die peacefully...

They saved me and got the bleach out of my system...

My mum asked me why I had tried to drink bleach and I told her that I confused it with milk... she then made the decision to home school me...

The bullying didn't end though...

When I started 9th during homeschooling my mum told me I could get a facebook...

So I did..

I made an account not thinking about who would find that account...

One day I got a facebook message...

I checked it and there was a picture of bleach that was 75% off..

It was the girls that had bullied me.. She said 'here try again, hopefully it will work this time!'

I hated the cyberbulling I had got from that facebook account so I deleted it...

I still didn't think I was good enough so one night... I was sitting in my room just crying.. those comments had repeated in my head over and over again..

I thought I was going insane because I heard the voices of the girls in my head... I would plug my ears and just rock back and forth hoping somehow those voices would get out of my head." I paused a little and wiped my tears. I knew what would come next would make me cry just as hard as I had back then.

"The voices still played... I looked around my room. At the time we had lived in an apartment complex on the 5th floor. When I looked around my room I had noticed the doors that led to my balcony...

I opened those doors and took in a breath of fresh air as I thought it would be my last.

I sat on top of the railing, looking down at the ground... it must of been 45 feet or more....

I heard my mother calling my name but I refused to listen.

I noticed there were 2 places I could land... there was a grass patch or the concrete...

I wanted to land on the concrete... I just wanted all this suffering to end.

I jumped... as soon as I did I regretted it.

I tried to changed courses to land on the grass patch but I couldnt... so I prayed.

I prayed to god. I remember the exact prayer I said.

I said 'Dear lord, I know I've sinned. I know I haven't been the perfect child, I made my mistakes, but god, I want to live. I have much to live for much to do much to find. I want to find love. Someone who makes me feel beautiful. Someone who makes me feel like all those comments from those people were wrong.'

And after that prayer... I hit the concrete and blacked out.

I remember this part... this was the part that changed my outlook on life..." I looked at Harry who was now crying.

"I remember seeing the gates... The gates of what were said to be heaven.

I saw god... he spoke to me.

'Violette, you wanted to live. Your mother wanted you to live as well. She is praying for you to come back, Violette. So I'm going to give you back to her. Promise me that you will do better... I know you will do better...' His words faded off.

I remember seeing the bright lights of the hospital. My mother and Niall were by my bed crying.

'God please give her back to us!' My mother said.

'Mom! I'm ok. I'm fine... I'm right here.' I told her.

Niall and my mother lifted their heads not hesitating to hug me.

I remember speaking was difficult... I remember not hearing the heart beat machine beating... I was dead. I was dead for 10 minutes but God believed I should live...

God gave me a chance.

He led me to you, Harry.

All the shit I went through was just to find you. To be here with you right now... To be holding you.. Because he knew he wanted me to be yours forever and you to be mine forever. Harry, that's all he wanted! For us to find eachother... " I did a nervous laugh and wiped my tears once more.

I knew I had something to live for. I had to live for Harry...

"He works in mysterious ways.. I-I just can't believe you went through all that... you tried to commit suicide. And it only led you to me. You see how miracles happen? Violette! You're the miracle! You're my miracle! Mine." His shaky voice said.

"Forever and Always." I replied hugging Harry as tight as I could.

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I cried writing this chapter...

Sorry if youre not religious and your reading it...

But this story is based of a true happening..

Well two.. Amanda Todd which is such a sad story and Hevean is for Real the movie

But I changed some things up..

Just remember bullying is not fun and it's something no one should go through. And suicide is never the answer.

This is basically a mix of events from my bullying story to Violette's actual story to Amanda Todd to Hevean is for real to just made up stuff I made up on the spot.

So if you know someone getting bullied please help them and tell them they arent alone.

If you need someone to talk to please don't hesitate to kik me: No_Control_Over_1d

Or dm me on twitter: @iheartnattyg
Stay strong,
Peace bruh ✌