Fragile Blue | Larry Stylinson

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I didn't slide down the door theatrically. I preferred to throw myself dramatically on my bed and stuff my face into the pillow.

Then I let my tears run free.

What should I have expected?

At some point that day would have come anyway. I just didn't think it would come so suddenly.

"Louis?" I suddenly heard Zayn's voice.

He spoke softly and came up to me. I tried to hide my tears but there was no chance to actually fulfil this mission.

"Hey, what's up? You've been so weird since Avery is here and now you're crying. Would you like to tell me something?" he asked, petting my back gently.

"N-no." I sobbed and pressed my face deeper into my pillow.

"I'm not Harry, but you can tell me anything." he clarified.

I took a deep breath. It was true, I really could. Zayn was easy to talk to. I turned around and looked directly at him. Zayn looked at me worried and pulled me up by my arm.

"What'sthe matter? Trust and tell me." he said calmly to me.

"I-I'm g-gay and-and--" and then I started crying again.

"That doesn't matter to me. You're still the same. You're still my bro, Louis." he assured me immediately and patted my back gently.

"But t-that's not a-all." I continued and began to tremble a little.

"Shhh Lou. Everything is fine, take a deep breath. Everything is fine." Zayn immediately spoke to me.

He knew what would happen if I don't calm down. My panic attack.

"Zayn, nothing's fine! I-I'm in love with Harry." I cried myself out and thus revealed my secret.

"Lou, that's okay. I'll support you. Besides, for a few months now I've seen that something is different." he smiled and pulled me into his arms.

I cried. With relief, thankfulness and sadness. Everything is just a hopeless case now because of Avery and it has proven to me that Harry at least couldn't be gay.

"We'll find a solution. Don't give up all of your hope. Maybe he likes you too. More than just a best friend." he tried to cheer me up.

"No. He has Avery and he only sees me as a friend. I'm sure of that." I mumbled.

"And I thought you were always the sunshine among us..." he whispered to himself.

"Listen, we're looking for a solution, but now just try to relax. Are you coming back to us?" Zayn turned back to me after he stood up.

"No." I shook my head. "I'm tired. Just tell the others that I'm not doing so well or something like that."

"Better just the tired thing. You know that otherwise Harry will turn the world upside down to find a way to help you. Good night, Louis." he grinned and closed the door behind him.

I quickly walked to the bathroom and brushed my teeth. Then I got back to my room and changed into some more comfortable clothes. When I was in bed, my eyes closed seconds later.

Unfortunately, my head was still working. So much that I fell asleep with my head hurting.