Fragile Blue | Larry Stylinson

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I sat on the sofa at home and cried. I felt pathetic. I kept crying.

I never could I stay strong. I was a coward. A pathetic wretch.

Liam and Zayn had been gone since an hour. Of course, Liam had to steal the money for Avery's coffee from Harry's money box. With a "See you."  and a "stay strong", the two left me.

As I said, I was sitting alone on the sofa. Even the TV wasn't on. I was just snorting into a paper towel when the front door was unlocked.

"I'm back." I heard Harry call, but I just sat quietly there and wiped the tears away from my face.

"There you are. Everything fine? You cried, didn't you?" he asked and sat down next to me.

I shook my head and started to reach for the remote, but Harry snatched it away from me.

"Your eyes are red so don't lie to me! Is it because I run after Avery?" he asked me further.

Somehow Harry wasn't making the whole situation any better. On the contrary. Go on twist the knife.

"If you already know everything, then why do you ask? Do you think that makes it easier for me? You would save me a lot of nerves if you only ask things that you don't know." I gave back a little snappy.

"Alright, if that's the case. Why? Why are you like this? Since Avery was there, you've been different. So moody and crying so often. Besides, you have cut yourself off from me. Even if Avery wasn't in the same room, you were different. Just like now. You are so different." he stated.

My head was exploding. I couldn't hear that name anymore.

"Avery here and Avery there. I can't hear her name anymore. Can you just don't say her name, please? Just say 'her'." I asked.

Harry looked a little confused, but then nodded.

"Do I get my answers now? Where is my clinging Blue? The one who always laughs with me, does every shit and confides everything to me. I would like to see him again. I don't like the sad Louis Tomlinson that much." he asked super sweetly.

"That's the problem..." I mumbled to myself.

With each of these words, he always gave me false hopes.

"What's the problem?" Harry asked confused.

Oops, I must have mumbled too loudly.

"Nothing." I said quickly.

"Nothing? You know, I don’t like the answer, because then there’s always something. Let's talk." he demanded.

What should I say?

The truth would be far too much! He would hate me for it and then I would regret telling him.

"I know, but I just can't tell it. That would destroy everything." I admitted.

"It won't destroy everything right away. It is a reason and we can solve it. Reasons are there to be solved." he winked at me.

"God Harry, you just don't get it. It would very well destroy everything." I protested.

"Then what should it destroy?" he asked.

God, sometimes this boy is a little slow with thinking....Well and in talking.

"Our friendship and my life. I mean, at least you would have her." I explained.

"Okay, we're not talking about her now! What should be so powerful that it destroys our friendship?" he asked me further.

"Forbidden love." it slipped out of me.

Shit, that were supposed to be thoughts only!!!

"Forbidden love? What are you talking about?" he looked at me questioningly. "And please just tell the truth now."

He wants the truth...
Was I even able to do that? I haven't even prepared myself!

"I-I emmm I-" I stammered restlessly.

I just can't do it!

"Hey, I'm here. Everything is and will be fine, okay? Take a deep breath and then just say it." he smiled encouragingly and took my hand.

He looked at me expectantly while drawing small circles with his thumb on the back of my hand. As asked, I took a deep breath and then looked him directly in the eyes. Suddenly I felt the courage in me. It was simmering literally.

Come on Louis!

Now or never.

"I've fallen in love with you." I finally admitted.