Waking up somewhere where U don't belong, where everywhere is different. Where U arent lost.
That hits different. Every night hearing raindrops dropping on the window. Feeling comfort to feel the new reality U made urself.
Waking up 8pm getting ready for school and coming back hours later and done with doing anything. Feeling bored and lost and want to do something in life.
Imagine videos playing every night to imagine hugging him or her, trying to imagine the better place instead of in ur own bed.
Trying to see him or her or to hug them, or even talk to them.
Different things i try to imagine every night just to be there
My comfort place far different then here.
Hogwarts the mystery wizarding school.
Draco, Luna, Hermione, Fred and George, Matheo, Tom, Theo, Neville and so much more.
Comfort people,
All i need in life is someone or something that comforts me, something that makes me feel happy.
The only way to experience that is
Shifting,
Shifting, thousand methods, scripts and time and hope is what i needed.
Putting raining sounds on my phone to listen through my airpods.
Laying in my bed trying to imagine dancing in the rain with him.
Only him.
1 week,
Nothing.
2 weeks,
Feeling something but still no good sign.
1 month,
Imagine videos playing and humming in the rain sounds.
After 5 months of thinking of it and 1 month trying.
My dream came finally true.
Waking up in the train to the paradise...
