𝑆𝑎𝑣𝑒 𝑚𝑒! 𖨆𖨆

Introduction

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Hi, my name is Lucas.. I'm a 21 year old boy..
I'm not gonna lie.. growing up wasn't easy.. And now you probably think I'm gonna say some shit like yeah I had like anxiety and depression because my mom wouldn't let me watch tv all day long..

And yes I am sure that might sound like a nightmare to some of you, and for all I know it might was so I won't be the one to judge you..

But for me, it's nothing like that, not even close.. Now I told you I won't judge you're story so please don't judge mine eighter, when I tell you that..

I have permanent damage from my childhood both mentally and physically. My father was not the best..

It all started when I was 2 years and he started treating my mother like crap.. I don't remember much because I was so young back then. But when I grew older my father started abusing me mentally..
«You are ugly and fat! No one is ever gonna love you!»
«I hate you!»
«I'm so disappointed in you! I wish you weren't my son!»
"Go hang yourself! It will be better for everyone!»

He always used to make me feel not worthy living, he made me feel stupid, ashamed and he made me feel like I don't wanna live a second more.

My mom became addicted to drugs and alcohol to escape from the terrifying reality she was living in. She was still totally harmless, but she was not able to stop my father from becoming even worse.

He started abusing me more, and this time not just with words, but with using his own hands to hurt me physically. At the worst he would choke me or hit me til I fainted on the floor unable to do anything and then calling me weak for not fighting back.

When I was 12 he ended up killing himself with a gun to his head in front of me and my mother. I of course ended up calling the police.

The police did their job, but not shocking they also noticed my mom being unable to take care of me all alone. So they sendt me to a foster home and an unknown family far away from my mother. A year later there was a terror attack at the mental hospital she was staying at.
- "No survivors"
I remembers the Tv messaging the morning after. And already by the age of 14 i had two failed suicide attempts..

With scars all over my face it's not weird the other kids taught I looked funny starting at middle-school. There were a group of guys that would wait for me after school every day only to beat me up and tell me to go die.

Rumors were spread about me all around every week and somehow some dork managed to find out that my mother died in a mental hospital which did not make things any easier.

There was this one girl though. Her name was Sally. She was my only friend and she tried as hard as she could to protect me. After we turned 16 and graduated middle school both me and Sally got into the same school and we moved into a dorm together with another of Sally's friends, Reia.

I and Sally catcher feelings and ended up as a couple. We stayed together for 5 months until something I never would expected to happen.. happened..

Me, Sally and Reia were at a party with a lot of people from our school. I mean we all knew we were to young to drink, but I mean, me were young and dumb you know.

Late at the evening ma, Sally and Reia arrived back home. I had noticed Reia and Sally acting a bit weird, but all suddenly Reia locked the door and Sally pushed me onto the cold floor getting on top of me starting to undress me. I asked them what they were doing, but they did not answer me..
Instead Reia took up her phone and started filming.

I told them to stop, but they didn't.
Sally started to do inappropriate things to me.
«Get off me!» I screamed.
I tried pushing her off, but I was pinned to they floor unable to move away.
«Stop! No! Stop!» I kept yelling.

After a long time I was finally able to get her of at least a little, but she got mad and punched me in the face.. not once, not twice, but three times and I got the same dizzy and weak feeling I used to get as a child. Unable to do anything. Unable to stand up for myself.

Reia kept just filming and laughing...