Please Save Me From Me... ( A Sad Hinata Book ) (Editing)

Chapter 14: I can't take it anymore

Hinata's True Feelings:
I have been studying for most of my life since I was a kid and they expect a lot from me especially since I am the first born. The stress, anxiety and  pressure from hearing the disappointed sigh and words of my parents have caused me depression. I thought maybe if I work hard more and just study maybe they'll be proud of me but they never were. Sometimes I wished for a happy family inside my head but in never comes true. I have been keeping it in and never letting it out. I am afraid that if I let it all out I'll be considered weak and useless or a crybaby or a attention seeker. I never wanted to be pitied so fake smiles are always my to go to. Sometimes if pain or stress is too much hurting myself is the escape. I know I am bound to break now but I have to hide it for the sake of everyone around me. I am a pitiful creature that needs it's feelings to be hidden.
End Of The Hiajta's True Feelings:

Hinata's Mom Pov
"Oh you came how was training camp?" I asked
"It was good I learned a lot" Hinata said. "Well you better get studying or no dinner for you now where's mommy's hug" I said Hinata hugged me and said " Okay mom call me when it's ready" Hinata replied " Okay" I said as I heard him going to his room. I thought to myself I'm sorry Hinata but we just don't want you to experience the life your father and I had.
End of Pov

Hinata's Pov
I have been studying for 3 hours straight and I have been studying chemistry for half an hour and I still don't get it. I am so useless I can't even understand one subject. What would my mom call me if I'm like this. I want to give up and sleep let all my fears drown me so I won't ever go back to this hellhole. I want to drown in my suffering and never go back. So I can be free from them. I can be free from stress, anxiety, pressure and depression that is keeping me away from everyone around me. I wish that my parents would appreciate me for once. I wish they would love me for who I am and what I want to be. But to be frank that will never happen. This will continue on until I say I can't take it anymore. And that's the truth I can't take it anymore because I'm only human. I cant do whatever they want me to do but I do it because I love them I can do all the things they ask me to do even if I had to be someone else for them. I would be that someone else. But if I had too much then there's no going back there will be no one to save me from my agonizing pain and suffering. I would die just to put myself to peace. And- I was interrupted by my mom calling me it's dinner time. Welp I gotta go or no dinner tonight for me.

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