Envy? I doubt it. ( A very bad kazuha x friend fanfic)

Just a dream.

Kazuha woke up in a cold sweat. He searched through the sheets only to find them empty. His heart once again sank. He was fooled once more into believing a false reality. "That same stupid dream. Why can't I just forget him." Its been a few years since his friend had tragically died. Kazuha has similar dreams every night. 'Is this how Celestia wants to punish me' he thought.
He quickly tried to erase the dream and all the feeling with it. This time it was harder though. It seemed much more real. He swears he was able to touch him. He swears everything happened. Didn't it? He was foolish to think otherwise. He knew that it was just a dream but how is it possible for a dream to seem so real?
He heard a knock on the door.
"Hey kid, you ok in there? I thought I heard something."
It was Beidou
Kazuha quickly sucked it up and released everything.
He didn't want Beidou to know what he was going through. Even though he knew she probably knew something was up, he still didn't want to make matters worse.
"Yeah I'm fine. I just had a really weird dream." He responded trying to sound giddy.
" Well alright. I'll be out here if you need anything, ok? Please do not hesitate to ask for help. I am here for you." Beidou sounded like a concerned mother, but Kazuha didn't mind. He knew she meant well.
He breathed in. Let out a sigh. And prepared himself to go with his life, like he does every morning. He wore a fake smile like an article of clothing. His baggy eyes as though it was a trend. He got dressed. And headed towards the door. Hand now on the doorknob, he let one last thought of his friend come through.
Damn... I really miss him.
And with that opened the door and entered the outside.

I bet that hurt. Good. You should be crying. Feel that emptiness.