"What the hell are you doing here Catherine?" I snapped at the girl in front of me. Well you can't blame me, she scared the shit out of me. I live alone and I wasn't expecting to find anyone in my apartment. I mean, how did she even get in?
"How did you get in here in the first place?" I asked with furrowed eyebrows, "eeasyy easy big girl, I know where you put your spare key, remember? In the upper corner of the little ca-" she was cut off by me, rudely. "Okay okay, conclusion. What are you here for?" .
"The hell is wrong with you, Sam? " she snapped, she was kind of right to be honest, I can be a total asshole sometimes, especially when I'm not in the mood to talk nor to see anyone altogether. You can't just get into somebody's apartment without their permission and not expect them to be mad. Even if they're your best friend, right? .. right?
"Just tell me what is it." I said calmly as if I didn't just snap at her for coming to my apartment to see me.
"Whatever" she scoffed. " I came because David told me you were sick and I wanted to check on you. You know, being a friend" she said emphasizing the word friend, looking me straight in the eyes. I suddenly felt like shit for treating her like that, for treating everyone like that.
"I.. s-sorry, I'm just so tired. It's been a very bad day" every day is I said inwardly.
She stepped closer looking at me as if I'm something to be studied, then she finally spoke. "truth is, I didn't come here because I thought you were sick" she said still with the same look on her face, I furrowed my eyebrows in confusion, "David is your boss after all, you could lie to him to take the day off, I was almost sure that you weren't sick" she said confidently as if she knew all about how my mind works, and it annoyed me so my reaction was a small sarcastic laugh, can't help it. "And why is that?" I said with a smile, not a genuine one.
"I can feel you hiding from everyone, avoiding everyone. Why?" She said, I was trying to read her emotion through her face and failed.
"What do you want to know Catherine?" I almost snapped.
She didn't react to the way I talked to her, instead she came another step closer and put her hand on my shoulder, I looked up at her a bit confused. "I'm just worried about you Sam, you haven't been yourself lately. Always in a bad mood, putting up an act that everybody believes, expect for me, because I know you too well to believe the bubbly and smiley Sam has changed so much to be a very tough and fiesty one, that rarely smiles a smile that is not sarcastic or a smirk" she finished looking at me with almost pleading eyes, as to explain.
I, in fact, smirked "you know what's funny caty?" She furrowed her eyebrows, and her once pleading eyes turned to an almost annoyed ones because of the smirk, I guessed. "What?" She asked not expecting a real explanation.
"What's funny is that we were best friends in kindergarten and primary school aannd middle school and then you left to leave with your dad in London, and now you're back after 7 years, seriously expecting to find the same girl you left, pretending to know all about me, well guess what, you know nothing." I saw the flash of hurt in her eyes, but I was only saying the truth. "People change Caty, to say it in another way, some people are bound to be fucked up by life itself. That's all you really need to know" I said, not wanting to dive in the topic more, I didn't like to talk about myself and the way my feelings work inside. Or probably I also didn't know how to.
"I'm sorry" I was taken aback, 'what?' I said to myself, she probably saw the look of confusion on my face, "I was being such a fool, coming over here pretending to be mrs.know it all" she breathed a laugh, "we haven't had a proper conversation about neither of our lives since I came back" I faked a smile in order not to be mean because what I really wanted to say was that I think we'll probably never have that conversation. "Yeah, well are you staying over? We can order pizza if you like?" I suggested trying to change the topic. I may have changed but I still love her she was my best friend after all, well my only friend. "Yup. You can't get rid of me, and I am HUNGRY" she almost yelled saying the word hungry, I laughed at her, a real laugh. As annoyed as I was to find her in my apartment with no warning while all I wanted was to stay alone, eat, tuck myself into bed and listen to music till I fall asleep. I was somewhat glad she came. I'm not insane I just.. Maybe I like having the company of someone instead of always being all alone. Or maybe I am insane, can't tell.
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We did order pizza, and we spent the night in front of the TV in the living room talking, she tried to know as much as she could about what made me change completely, but I changed the subject and diverted the conversation to be about her all the time. It worked, or maybe she just didn't want to push me, either way I appreciated it. That was before we both starting yawning and decided to go to my room before we'd drift to sleep on the couch.
The next morning we both went to work with very tired faces because of the late night talking we had last night. She's an editor at a magazine, and I, well I wait tables at a restaurant nearby, I never got the chance to practice what I learned in university, I had a diploma in business management. But I can't complain, at least I'm able to pay the rent of my apartment and have a decent life. That is until I can be what I want to be.
"You're late." my boss said without glancing my way, he probably knew the sound of my steps by now, I've been working for him for about 6 months now. "Well good morning to you too, David" he turned around so he was facing me now, a small smile on his face "Good morning, Sam. Now go get to work quickly, today's gonna be a hell of a day, we have a table of 24 for this evening, we need to put tables together to fit the assholes" he said making me laugh, I actually wasn't in the worst of moods today, good start of a day. I hope nothing ruins it.
"I'll make the assholes feel at home, no worries" I smiled mocking his use of the word assholes to the people that were going to pay to sit their asses in his fancy restaurant. He shrugged and smacked my shoulder ordering me to get to work, as I did immediately.
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