Covered Ears [Fem reader x Makima]

chp19

Makima woke up and looks completely drown but my thoughts. She has been gazing down at Tira for a minute now and it's making me worried.

'What should I do rin?'

'Don't look at me for the answer, I don't know what you would do.'

'Mr Kishibe wants us to start again, but I don't think I have the will to do it. I'm already traumatised in the past, I'm scared it will hunt me again.'

'Well, I got some questions that will maybe help you a bit, do you view makima as a human?'

'...yes..'

'Do you think she changes over the years?'

'Yes..'

'Do you still have feelings for her?'

'...'

'....Y/n?...answer?'

'...yes...'

'Hmmm, I see. The girl who spent 6 years to find you and ask you to start a relationship again is really...umm...I don't know Y/n. I tried to help you, sorry.

'It's fine..'

Sitting here in the dining room while she's on the sofa with Tira, stuff floods my mind not giving me enough space to think on my own. Mr Kishibe I you do know love is very complicated to right?

"Y/n."

"Hu- yes?"

"...how is your leg?"

"Oh- well it's fine...How'd you know?"

"I smell a bit of blood in the air and you were limping whenever you go everywhere so I figured. It was from last night right?"

"..yes, the gov- I mean, some fiends decided to attack us but don't worry, I manage it."

"..Y/n...would like to come here for a second?"

"Hmm?" Walking over to her limping a little bit, finally sitting on the sofa she was on.

"What is it?"

"I'm leaving for good tomorrow."

"Huh?!" I yelled in shock.

"B-but Mr Kishibe said-"

"It's my decision Y/n, I can't let you get hurt from all the fiends and people targeting me, like that night with snipers the government send."

"W-wait, How'd you know about the government and sniper?"

"I overheard your conversation with Kishibe a day before, and seeing you being injured because of me, is making me feel guilty about it, you having to protect me from last night while I was unconscious is...truly pathetic for the control devil right?"

"...." I want to say something, but my mind is blank.

"Well, I have already achieved my goal from here."

"W-what was your goal?"

"Is to get your answer, remember what I told you before? Us starting a new relationship, so what's your answer?"

"..." I hate myself to answer this type of thing, knowing full well of myself that I don't have one.

If I say no, she will be going back to Japan and will be just a working robot non-stop. But if I say yes....but I'm scared...

"Hehe, it's ok if you reject me. Plus, I already know what love is."

I shoot my head up, to her eye level. She knows it, I'm glad. But what is this burning feeling I'm having? I didn't even make her feel affection. Did she figure it out by herself? Or someone had already shown her?

"W-well what is it?"

"A guy told me on a date that love....you have to force someone to be in your life I think and if they reject you, don't give up on them, I think that's how I remember he said it. Pretty complicated if I must say."

"There is no other person, Makima had dedicated her feelings towards you and only you. We tried to get her to a blind date and things didn't work out well."

"You gave me your heart, to make me understand the emotions of others, with it, I realise my feelings towards you...my love for you....even if you view me as a bad person."

"Y/n, your the only makima seem to trust and comfortable with, also your good at understanding her personality and action."

"there's no telling how much she will lose her balance if she's gonna be in the HQ with just stacks of papers and killing fiends and devil every day, she will be a mindless working machine.

Words fill my head with Makima and Mr Kishibe while I stare at her with disbelief. Is this what people say what love is about to her?

"Am I right? Or wrong?"

Placing my shaky hands on her shoulder, letting out my voice with cracks in between them.

"Ma-kima...I..."

"Hmm?"

"I lo...."

"What are you saying Y/n?"

"I SAID I LOVE YOU!"

I yelled out the words I have been keeping in for years, the words I wish to say to someone special to me, I wasn't sure what my action had led to me to the point I can't let my words out without thinking about it first.

"...haha..aw..I love you too, no need to worry, we will still meet each other like friends doe-"

"I love you in a different way Makima...to tell you the truth, I'm afraid of love and traumatise by it because...Well you know, but maybe I can't give it a try again, by fixing the puzzle I left you with. So you can finally feel it for real this time."

Makima was silent, her yellow eyes were the same as ever, mesmerising to gaze at. She holds out her hand, placing it on my cheeks.

"You are not forcing yourself to love me are you?" Asking in a worried voice.

"No, this...this feeling in my heart is real, it won't let go of the past, I use to think it was taunting me with the horrible stuff, but no, it was reminding me that someone makes it beat like no others and that someone is you."

Silence filled the air, retrieving back her hand from my cheeks, her view was on her feet. I was doubting if I said something wrong, but she began to giggle and it came along with a crack voice....she was crying.

"Y/n.....can I hear you say it again?" Asking it with a wide smile on her face, it was the brightest smile I have ever seen from her.

"I love you Makima..."

"I love you too Y/n L/n."