Impossible

Leaving me.

Eren Pov ....

        I wanted to cry and tear out my heart and give up everything. He seems so lost and many things. I wanted to yell and look through our memories but I can't it will give out everything I work for. I am not letting that happpen again. He wanted to be human to live and be free from rules and judgment. I don't blame him so I gave him his wish. Is that what soul mates should do give up there love for some other. I finally had him. I always watched over him these past years. I always had saw him with a child and a wife. Saw him grow old and die. Seen him be born again and drink and have fun. I always watched over him I always had. But it always changes soon I couldn't catch up. I didn't eat for the longest time and that when I saw him getting a human for the region. I could of sworn he was about to kill me. So I flew away crying tears. Its harder for me that my mother doesn't even know I am this monster. Its hard for me that Levi my love, my husband, my life doesn't remember me. I cried in my office (My crying room) for the longest time. I looked around seeing nothing just pics of him. Everything was him and him only. His rare smiles. His bare chest. His armor. Everything and I only had one pic that showed him looking at the camera. Yea were advance than the humans. 

        There was a knock I didn't answer so the person just let themself in. I looked around seeing Armin with tea. "You Haven't ate since Levi was a 22 he's 30 now. Drink something at least." 

        "Yeah sure just," I broke off  "I Love him." 

        Armin nod his head and smirked putting the tea on the floor, I crawled over to the tea and drank. I found him. I found him and he is here. He is in my house, my kingdom. We can rule again like we did. We can, maybe. What happens if wants to stay human? What happens if he doesn't love me. Maybe he doesn't. 

        I screamed pulling on my hair spreading my wings going out the window. It shattered while I went to the sky and screamed over and again. Making thunder out of my frustration that the lighting flew around me. Raining so hard then gentle when I cried. I layed on a cloud watching my mother. When days like these come by I look at my mother. She always waits for me outside during the rainstorm. I flew down while I turned human about 10 feet above ground hurting myself. I ran towards my mom and smiled at her. She came to me and hugged me while I hugged her back. She hasn't aged. I kept them both alive as many times I have to. I kept danger away from both of them. She took me in our house and made a sandwitch. She hummed while I dripped water on the floor. She didn't care unless I was home. 

        "You know Eren, that demon hunter could be good for the family. I don't care if your gay or bi but I think you get someone in your life." she said. 

        Chuckling "Nah mom, I will be growing up so fast!" 

        She smiled returning to the kitchen. We are married. He doesn't remember not yet. He doesn't know I hope he remembers. The room he is sleeping is our room were we had sex played around you know sexual play. Yea were in love so bad a day without touching is our nightmare. Its my nightmare now cause he doesn't remeber me. I wanted to cry and burst out of tears and die. "Mom, I think the rain stopped so I will be going," 

        She nodded and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I tooked off and flew away. Tears burned my skin and it was noticable. Soon enough I entered Levi room and seeing him sleeping on his side. He was always cute. I looked at the mirror seeing my eyes are bagged, my ribs are shown, my cheeks are pale. I am not doing well lately. I went into bed with him putting him in deep sleep. He can't wake up about five min. Gives me time to talk to him. "Hey Levi, I love you. You better get that in your damn fucking head of yours," 

        I kissed him on the lips softly feeling what we had before. I left the room heading towards the kitchen. I yawned making everyone come after me. I weakily ran away. I never liked people chasing me so I went to the safest, well for me, room that is my office. I locked it. I curled up on the floor with the carpet floor. I fell asleep for the longest time hmm was the last time I slept? A decade? no must be more. I feel asleep. 

        It was dark and I did not like it. Levi was there backing away from me. He was scared of me. He doesn't love me. All those times he never hugged me, never he said I love you. I cried out his name chasing him into the distance. There is one place that I can't go that is the human world. He left me forever and I am not getting back. I saw him with my eyes while he said something. I never understood what and I am still trying. 

        I woke up seeing Armin putting a towel over my head and he just smiled. Levi was there having his glare at me. Wait why am I in our room I was in my office! Don't let Levi see! Good thing I can block any conversation from both of us. I am the only one who would let him talk to me. I looked at Armin for help but he winked at me, good he doesn't know.