Your Last First Kiss(A Harry Styles Vampire Story)

Chapter 20.

It's only been a few weeks since the fight with Le'anne and her pack, but it seems like months. Harry has been different too, more distant. There's a look in his eyes that I can't exactly put into words. A hunger, anger, sadness? I mean I can't blame him, his mate before me is dead because of me and one of his closest friends so how can I expect him to be okay. It hurts knowing that caused such a big change in him, but I don't blame him. I can't. It's changed me as well, I don't talk to anyone anymore, I have nightmares almost every night. The pain I feel from Harry is almost unbearable to handle on my own and sometimes I honestly can't. I sometimes feel like i'm going insane.

I sat in the living room staring into the fire the fireplace was setting off. Enjoying its warmth, when I heard someone walk in and sit beside me. I glanced over to see Emily doing the same as me, tears forming in her eyes. I let out a sigh and got up, as soon as i took a step towards the hall to head up stairs her soft voice caught me off guard.

"What's happened to you and him, y'all aren't the same. I mean, I understand your first kill is going to have an effect on you, but why are you shutting everyone out? And Harry, have you even wondered how he's doing? Has he talked to you about any of it?" Emily spoke, so much emotion in her voice it was hard to place which one was more intense.

I slowly turned around, staring at her, tears threatening to fall from my eyes. I took a deep breath and finally spoke to someone other than myself and the Void that I called my mate.

"He won't talk to me, no matter how hard I try to get him to express what's going through is mind. He just won't. I can feel everything he's feeling, I can't hear his thoughts anymore like I used to almost like he found a way to shut me out. He doesn't want anything to do with me and  don't know if I can take being here and having him ignore me. That right there is enough pain, but his heartbreak is to much to handle."

I heard a silent gasp from her direction before I turned around and finally let the tears that were threatening to fall go. I've never tought about leaving, the words just fell from my mouth. It doesn't sound like a bad idea though, maybe distance will make that pain a little less noticeable.

I began to walk up the stairs to my room, a loud crash stopped me in my tracks. I looked to the end of the hallway to Harry's room, hearing muffled cries. I hesitantly walked towards his door, the path almost feeling foreign to me. As I got to his door, hearing his cries broke my heart. I slowly twisted the door knob,the door creaking open, revealing his bare back to my. He was sitting on the edge of his bed, his head in his hands, his body shaking from crying so hard.

"Harry, talk to me.. Please" I said as I slowly took steps towards the broken boy. As I got in front of him, he hadn't moved. I kneeled down in front of him, grabbing his hands and pulling them away from his face to see his eyes a bright red with a mix of green. I took a deep breath of air, as he looked at me, this time like he was looking at my soul, instead of like I wasn't there.

"Why would you leave.. You promised me you wouldn't leave me, Amber... Please don't leave.." He finally spoke to me, catching me off guard. I took in his features, his curls perfectly framing his face, his eyes changing back to their beautiful green color. As I took in the beautiful man before me tears fell freely from my eyes. I pulled him to me, his arm twisting around my small frame, his head fitting perfectly into the crease of my neck. I listened to his sobs as he clung to me, like I was just going to vanish from his grasp. I placed a light kiss to the top of his head.

I held him like that for a good hour, just letting him cry. I felt his body shift in my arms, causing me to loosen my grip on him as he looked into my eyes. I watched as his eyes glanced from my eyes to my lips, and finally I could feel him open his mind to me again. I could feel every wave of emotion he was feeling, hear every thought going through his mind. I got lost listening to everything going through his mind, I didn't feel him move closer and finally kiss me. I had almost forgotten the way his lips matched mine. The way they moved together in perfect sync. I didn't realize I was holding my breath until I heard him mutter something to me.

I pulled back, looking at him while releasing my breath. His eyes held so much apology.

I shook my head as I saw him about to speak. I didn't want to hear him apologize, he didn't need to at this moment. All I wanted was for him to just hold me like he used to, make me forget everything that has happened since that night that I had thought I lost him.

"We have a lot to talk about, don't we..?" I heard him say quietly, a normal person hearing wouldn't have been able to pick it up, but I caught it. I just nodded my head, until responding.

"Not right now, though."

There it is guys. It's not much but it's an update. I'm finally getting an idea of where I want this story to go.

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