Forever my girl ( Hosie )

Chapter 20

Hopes Pov:

As soon as we were let out we ran and ran. We played with each other and wrestled. Even Lizzie joined in. It was all fun until eventually we decided to go in. When we got back into the house we went back into the shifting cells while my aunt Rebekah brought us clothes. When we all finally turned back we got out of the cells. It was 12 at night by then. 

" So lizzie you can sleep in the guest bedroom on the right while josie can sleep in the guest bedroom on the left. Sound good?" My aunt rebekah asked looking at the both of them.

They both smiled than nodded and went into their rooms, but before went into hers she gave me a smile passing my room.

When she was gone i smiled to myself. I was happy that she was back but I also knew she would try to get me to move back to the school. And frankly as much as I liked her I didnt want to. I wanted to stay here with my family. As if it mattered I would already be graduating in a couple months. I would be off to college or whatever i had planned to do. And i knew as much as it would Josie and I... I was far too dangerous to be around. I attract monsters everywhere I go. And sometimes I am pretty sure I am the monster. And i wasn't going to drag Josie into my world of Problems.

I sat there in my bed thinking until i heard a knock at my door I looked up from my hands to see josie. 

" What are you doing here so late?" I practically whispered to josie.

" We need to talk." Josie said as she came in my room and sat down.

" You know you cant stay here right? You have to go back to school. Ill be fine I promise." I told josie looking down at the floor.

" Than come with me." Josie said quietly. 

" I can't ." I told Josie still looking down at my hands.

" Why not Hope? You have been gone for 3 years.... I have thought you were dead for three years! I blamed myself. And now your finally here, and you dont even want to come back?" Josie said and I could tell she was on the verge of tears.

" When was the last time a monster attacked?" I said as I continued to look down at the ground. 

" What? That has nothing to do with-" Josie said as i cut her off.

" When was the last time josie?" I said looking up at her with tears in my eyes.

She sighed.

" Three years ago." she said confused.

I gave her a sad smile.

" Josie... dont you see. I brought danger to the school... to my friends... to you. As soon as I left the Monsters did too. Because after all those years of fighting the monsters that came to our school. I realized that I was just the monster. And i wont let you into my life because all it is is darkness, sadness, and danger. I wont be coming back to the school. But you.... youll go to college and travel the world, and have a blast. You will be happy, and meet someone amazing and get married, and have kids. And im sorry that I wont be that person." I said as tears rolled down my face.

" Why are you saying this as if I wont remember you because we both know I cant move on." Josie said crying.

I gave her a sad smile.

" Because you wont. Malivore is back.... and I finally realized that I'm the one thing that can kill him." I said as I looked down.

" So your saying when you jump into Malivore I wont remember you anymore..." Josie said as she cried.

Tears rolled down my face as I nodded my head.

She jumped into my arms crying.

" You dont have to go.... we can just fight the monsters together." Josie said as she dug her head into my shoulder as she cried.

" Josie... this is what I was born for... this is the reason I'm here. I always thought I was a mistake, and that I had no use in this world. But I finally have a purpose. And weather that is everyone will forget me, except the people in my family, I will live with that. And I'm ok with that, because I know that if i don't some many more people will get hurt because of my selfishness. I am so sorry. So I guess this is me saying good bye." I said as i cried even more with josie in my arms.

" I promise that even when I dont remember you, you will Forever be my girl. And I hope that we meet again, just so I can fall in love with you all over again. Because even if my brain doesnt remember, I know my heart will. And if you come back I dont expect you to wait your entire life for me to realize that its you who I always loved. But i want you to promise me that you will at least come into my life again. I promise you that one day I will remember." Josie said as she broke down.

" I promise... always and forever." I gave her a soft smile before she crashed our lips together.

After I pulled apart I reached into my night stand and grabbed a letter out of it. 

" Don't read this until I'm gone. I promise you that I will always Love you." I said giving her the letter. 

" Did you tell lizzie yet?" Josie asked crying.

I nodded yes at her.

" When do I have to say goodbye to you?" Josie said crying.

" Oh love... you never have to say goodbye to me.... I will always be in your heart, I will always be in your life no matter if you remember me or not. As long as you have that letter, and your big heart that you carry around everywhere you go, I will be there right beside you, or behind you, or in front of you, or wherever your heart desires." I said pulling her into another hug as she sobbed.

" I leave tomorrow, and I promise once I get out of the mud, I will go straight to you, weather you remember me or not." I said to Josie as I layed down with her.

We fell asleep snuggled together as one.

The next day-

I woke up completely dreading the love of my life. But I finally got up and grabbed the bag I packed and headed downstairs to see my family gathered around Including lizzie. They all hugged me.

" I promise I will be back and when I do not to worry you guys will remember me." I told them smiling.

" And as for you lizzie as long as you have the letter that I gave you, In a way you always will too." I said as I smiled to.

" Goodbye guys... Ill be back soon." I said as I walked out the door.