Without A Name

Chapter 3

He said he had seen me around school and wanted to get to know me. So when I fell and got humiliated by those girls awhile back, that was his chance. I was grateful for that but I don't know if I was ready for a relationship. Even though I don't have anything holding me back, I'm not sure if I should start something that would hurt me even more later on. I liked him too but everything was happening so fast to me and I'm still unsure of every decision I make. Could have I avoided all this ever since the beginning?

He said that he respects my decisions and that he will wait for me. I was shocked, nobody has ever said that to me. So I said...yes!, it was kinda a spur in the moment kind of thing. I had nothing to lose, my parents didn't care, my grades weren't that good, and I had lots of free time. We started out slowly and he was always patient with me. When we went on the first date, he took me to a little fair. We played games, rode rides and ate tons of food. I wanted that moment to last forever. He took me home and he kissed me on my cheek, I immediately turned red.

I went inside and ran up to my room. I was thankful for him but happiness doesn't last forever. I was starting to wonder when something would take a bad turn. I just ignored that little voice inside my head and continued to date him. This went on for a couple more months. It was summer, we were so happy, he made me totally doubt that this relationship would end. I was at my happiest and I imagined a life with him. One night, he called me to meet at the park near my house and I was so excited, what could possibly be the reason to call me out this late? Was he going to say "I Love You" for the first time. I should have never put my guard down. I arrived at the park and he was standing there waiting for me. When I saw him. I ran into his arms and hugged him so tight. We sat down on the bench and he started talking, here it is! He is gonna say it!

"I wanna break up" those words shocked me, why? He said I was a joke, that he simply pitied me. I felt that someone had ripped out my heart and crushed it with their own two hands. I was utterly devastated and felt betrayed. I was bawling my eyes out and he said sorry and turned his back away from and started to walk away from me. I ran up to him and hugged him from behind and said "Don't leave me." He said he was done with me and that it was fun while it lasted and that I'm such a boring person, we were always doing the same things every time we hung out. He unlatched my hands and continued walking away from me. I just stood there crying, waiting for him to turn back around and say he was just kidding or that it was a prank or something at least. But no... he never came back.