My Family, My Mate, The Age Gap and Me.

The wolf inside.

I woke up so hot I started to wonder if I was burning. Then I remembered the dream I had that Mr Eastman and Ava were wolves and that Mr Eastman’s brother (who was called Drew in my dream) said that he was my mate. I sniggered slightly before the heat turned into pain as well. I whimpered, I wanted to call out for someone, but when I opened my eyes I realised that this is not my bedroom. Shit! Where the hell am I? I whimpered again and suddenly I felt movement beside me. What the hell? “Oh shit, baby I’m sorry. I should have told you before you let me mark you.” Drew’s face was in front of mine as he spoke. My eyes widened, so it wasn’t a dream. I wanted to ask him what was happening, but it came out as a wordless scream of pain. Drew had tears in his eyes. “I’m so sorry, it will only hurt for a little bit I promise.”  I couldn’t stop screaming. I looked at him with what I hoped was a questioning face, I want to know what the hell is happening to me and he seems to know. Drew nods and kisses my face gently, “Your shifting.” This time I managed words as I screamed. “What do you mean ‘I’m shifting’?” Drew scooped me up and suddenly I realised that I could hear other voices...in my head. He ran with me outside, I heard Ava telling me that he would bring me to near her. Ava told me that I was becoming like her, Holden and Drew; I am becoming a wolf. “I love you Sof and I’m so sorry, I should have told you; you should have known what you were getting into, like Ava did.” She knew before she married Mr Eastman? I thought. ‘Yeah she did, it wasn’t an arranged marriage Sof, they are mates too.’ Drew said inside my head. ‘How did you do that?’ I asked him in my head. He chuckled, ‘I’m a wolf and an Eastman, remember? And now you are almost a wolf too.’ He laid me on the grass, and lay down beside me shifting in the process. He licked his mark on my neck and the pain halved. There was some horrible sounds of bones breaking, then I realised that was me. I wanted to scream and I couldn’t. A few hours later (Drew chuckled and said, “Sof it’s been a few minutes since we woke up”) I felt my body reshuffle itself, and then everything stopped.

I looked around, and went to stand up; that was when I realised that I was standing on four feet. ‘Oh my god! This is so awesome!’ I yelled at Drew, who chuckled. I could hear Ava and Mr Eastman cheering for me, I ran over and gave them a hug. Then I heard Drew in my head, ‘Do you want to play?’ The tone of his request suggested something else, and I bolted in his direction. I couldn’t get over how fast it is to run on four legs. I chased him into the wood, I could smell him; and by god did it make me want to eat him! When we had been running for a while we spotted a cabin. Drew headed inside the cabin, I hesitated. ‘Sof, it’s fine. This cabin is here for when mated couples need some alone time.’ I grinned at him, and charged. He chuckled, ‘Yeah I want to do that again to, but would you like to see what you look like first? There are wall sized mirrors in the bedroom.’ Curiously the thought of those mirrors turned me on more. ‘Get inside now, before I take you on the doorstep!’ Drew begged huskily. As I walked into the cabin, I automatically started sniffing around to get a feel for the place, I was mostly able to put a name to each scent; but there was one that I couldn’t place. ‘Drew what’s that smell?’ I asked, and described it to him. Drew made an odd noise in the back of his throat, and said, ‘How about we go and see what you look like first?’ I nodded slowly, unsure of why he was avoiding my question.

We went into the only bedroom, and there before me were two grey wolves, one I recognised as Drew, so the other must be me. The mirrors. I’m smaller than Drew but still enormous, and I look a lot like him; but only one shade lighter in colour. ‘You like?’ He asked. ‘I love!’ As I looked at him in the mirror I wondered what it would be like to make love as wolves in front of it, I began to burn with need and I noticed that smell again, but it is stronger now. Drew made that odd noise in the back of his throat again. ‘Um... that’s you.’ He said. ‘What do you mean it’s me?’ I asked, again the odd noise. ‘Close your eyes.’ He said, I reluctantly did so, and then; ‘Oh God!’ ‘I know.’ He replied, ‘You taste incredible Sof!’ When  he had finished me off, he came up to me and licked my nose. ‘There it is again!’ I said. Drew nodded, ‘That’s what I meant by it’s you. I, and incidentally any wolf nearby, can smell when you are excited.’ He said in a suggestive tone. I must have looked appalled, for he then said, ‘Don’t worry, you get used to it, and no one would dare touch you; no matter how good you smell.’ I nodded, and then because standing here with him was setting me off again I asked, ‘So, what’s it like to have sex as a wolf?’ Drew shook his head, ‘I have no idea, that is one thing that even those of us who don’t retain out virginity for our mates, wait for. It is supposed to be so personal and intimate that you only ever do it with your mate. Of course, even though I can’t tell you what it’s like; I’m sure I could give you a personal demonstration.’ By the time he had finished speaking, we could both smell just how turned on I am. ‘Please.’ I begged hoarsely, and Drew pounced on me; gripping onto my shoulder with his teeth and then slamming into me. I have never felt anything like it, and I’m glad it was with Drew.

The next morning we headed back to the Eastman family home, still in our wolf forms as I didn’t know how to change back and there were no clothes to wear (not that I had been wearing any when I shifted, Drew had kept me under the sheet). When we arrived we found a set of clothes each on the end of the bed that we had slept in. ‘Ok, sweetheart. To shift back you need to focus on what it was like to be human, what you looked and felt like; and then at the same time sort of pull yourself in. Kind of like pulling yourself back together.’ I nodded at Drew and tried, it was hard at first, but I got it on the second try and now that I know what it feels like and what I need to do it shouldn’t be so difficult next time.

Once we had gotten dressed, we headed out to see Ava and Lupe. We found the new little family sitting in the living room while Angie and Lydia helped her breastfeed. “Hey little brother, how are your two beautiful girls doing today?” Holden chuckled, “We are fine, but Lupe doesn’t seem interested in breastfeeding. She’s definitely hungry, but she keeps turning her mouth away.” Lydia was getting frustrated, because she didn’t know what else to try. “Lydia calm down, the more worked up you get the more you’re going to put Lupe off. Have you tried expressing?” Everyone shook their heads with frowns and Lydia looked scandalised. “Why would we do that? Lupe would only get used to having a bottle and then she wouldn’t take the breast at all.” Drew chuckled beside me, I looked at him in confusion. “If you get Ava to express, you can spoon a couple of mouthfuls into Lupe; she’ll take it and get a taste for it, then rub some more over Ava’s nipples. Lupe’s refusing it because it doesn’t smell like milk.” Everyone’s faces cleared, and they ran off to get a pump and bottle. “I don’t understand.” I said to Drew, he smiled gently at me. “All babies can smell milk if it’s close to their face, especially newborns it’s the strongest sense they have, although the others are developing rapidly. On top of that Lupe is a werewolf and Ava’s milk hasn’t come down yet. Even I can’t smell her milk, so she needs to express to encourage her milk to come down, and then Lupe will be able to smell it and she should take it quite well.” We wondered out to the porch as I didn’t really want to watch my best friend expressing breast milk.

Once Ava had finished feeding Lupe (and with Drew’s suggestion there were no more problems), I was introduced to the family properly. Angie screamed, “I have another daughter-in-law!” Drew had a tight look on his face, “Mum I haven’t even asked her to marry me yet!” I smiled slightly at that. I met Bryan, their Dad, and he was very kind, he gave me a gentle hug and said that he was pleased to meet me. Lydia, who is Drew’s twin, doesn’t think that it was such a good idea for us to complete the mate bond yet, because of the age gap and the fact that my parents probably won’t like it, I shrugged at that. Maria just hugged me and welcomed me to the family, as did Will; who also introduced me to his mate Julie, everyone was surprisingly welcoming. But then again this is how they so things, so chance meetings and then meet the family visits are a way of life for werewolf kind. After lunch I realised that I had a couple of messages on my phone from Mum asking where I am, and I asked Drew to take me home; Kenneth had already txt me telling me he had taken our car home.