I Solemnly Swear (Remus Lupin x Reader)

Chapter 7: Rotterdam

~~~~~•Y/n POV•~~~~~

Remus and I spent a few more days in Amsterdam before going to The Hague, where we went to more museums and all kinds of shops. We finally made it to Rotterdam which would be our last stop before heading to Paris. I noticed there was slight pain in his eyes when he looked at me. Was it because of my dream? Did something happen to him? Did I do something wrong?

We eventually got back to our hotel room late at night after dinner. We sat on the couch watching TV in silence. We couldn't understand anything because it was all in Dutch (ignore if you know Dutch) so we just sat there. Watching. Mindlessly watching. I decided that I should ask him about his difference in behavior.

"Remus, love?"

"Yes darling?"

"You've seemed off the past few days. Not off to the point that you're an arse or seem like a completely different person, just off enough for me to notice. Are you alright?"

"Yeah sure, why wouldn't I be?"

I heard him curse slightly under his breath. I knew he was lying. I held his right hand while caressing his face.

"Remus, come on we're engaged, tell me what's wrong."

"Fine. It's just that the night you had that nightmare, I had a dream. I was cured."

"What do you mean cured?"

"I wasn't a werewolf anymore and we were together in an open field watching the galaxy and the full moon... I don't know, I just feel like me being me causes me to miss out on the little things with you."

"As much as I wish I could look at the full moon with you in human form, there are a lot of little things we get to do together too and I appreciate those just as much if not more. I don't really think about what we miss out on a lot."

"Really?"

"Yes really. I love you dumbass."

Remus laughed. "I love you too Y/n."

"How about we go to bed? We can't understand what's on TV anyways."

"What do you mean go to bed? Like to y'know...."

"No, I meant to sleep. But I mean if you want to. It's not like we haven't done it before."

"I mean it's been awhile... I don't mind it if you don't."

Our faces slowly inched towards each other until I cupped his face and kissed him before pulling away.

"I wouldn't mind either... let's take this to the bedroom."

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~~~~~•Remus POV•~~~~~

I awoke to the sun shining through the blinds onto my face. Y/n was in my arms still sleeping and completely naked, as was I. I couldn't help but get flashbacks from last night of her on top of me while pinning me down. Her facial expression as she rode me ingrained in my mind. My train of thought was interrupted by a screech at the window and flapping right after. I quickly got dressed before making sure Y/n was covered up and opened the window.

"You can't make too much noise, this is a hotel that doesn't want animals in it." Why am I talking to an owl? I know it doesn't understand me.

I closed the window and took the letter from the owl before giving it some food. I turned over the envelope, it was from Sirius and Marlene. I figured I'd open it once Y/n woke up. I imagined it was probably news of the twins being born. They were supposed to be due soon. I heard a groan behind me, causing me to turn around.

"Morning Y/n."

"Oh, hey Remus. Can you pass me my clothes, love?"

I threw them to her and turned around to give her privacy while getting dressed.

"You know, you don't have to turn around when I get dressed. I appreciate it though."

"I know darling, I'm just being a gentleman and giving you your privacy."

"Thanks."

"Sirius and Marlene sent us a letter."

"Oh? You think it's about the twins?"

"Probably, I was waiting for you to wake up before opening it."

"I appreciate that Rem. Now let's open it."

I laid next to her in the bed and put the letter in a position that allowed both of us to read it.

Dear Moonykins and Y/n,

I was too lazy to write two separate letters. I'm exhausted, but not as exhausted as Marlene. I'm writing this for Marlene because she gave birth to our twins yesterday, a girl and a boy named Venus and Eris Black. They're in good health and Marlene is recovering well. Marlene says hi and we both hope that you're enjoying your engagement trip. Remus, I hope you've proposed to Y/n already or else this will be really awkward. And if you haven't, what the fuck are you doing? Propose already for fuck's sake. Y/n, I hope you aren't doing anything too naughty with our sweet Moonykins and that you said yes to his proposal if he did propose. On another note, I know you guys are going to Paris at some point. A lot of Death Eater activity has been reported there recently and we're expecting some sort of attack. Some members of the Order are expected to be there just in case. Just be careful and stay alert. I hope you two enjoy the rest of your vacation.

- Sirius

"I hate him."

"Me too Y/n."

We looked at each other and just laid in silence. It gets harder and harder to deny there's a war looming over us with each passing day. This will probably be the last vacation we take for a long time.

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Y/n and I went to more shops during the day, got high again, and came back early in the evening. We wrote separate letters to Marlene and Sirius before sending the owl back. I could tell Y/n was worried and so was I. I know she's had similar worries about this war since at least sixth year, but it just feels more real now.

We didn't really talk during the evening. We didn't feel the need to, we knew the same thing was on both our minds. We knew the war would take up every aspect of our lives very soon. We're not ready to live a life of not knowing whether we'll see each other whenever we're on missions, but we have to live this life of uncertainty for the greater good. She was in bed before me. She looked at me as I got in bed before looking straight at the ceiling.

"Goodnight Remus, I love you."

"I love you too Y/n, goodnight."