My forever drug (B.E.)

chapter 1

You owe me" I said shoving him against the wall

"I...I know just give me one more week please, I promise I'll get it for you."

"You said that last week, you had enough time. If you ain't giving me my money I'll visit that little girlfriend of yours" his eyes widened.

"Please... Please leave her out of this, she doesn't even know I'm in dept"

"Then it's time for you to have a little chat with her I guess, before I do" I punched him in the stomach to mark my words and left.

God this dude has been getting on my nerves.

I figured out he had a girlfriend when I saw them together last weekend, I now know her name is Billie and she's into music. I didn't pay enough attention to know what she looked like exactly but I remember she had deep blue hair. I told myself I would get the money from her, since that motherfucker clearly isn't going to.

I started dealing when I was 16. Everyone told me I looked older, so I took advantage of that. I don't even smoke. I tried but it wasn't that special. The money it gets me tho. Sheeeesh I could buy 8 lambo's right now. But I won't, it would cause to much attention. And if there's one thing I learned is that you DON'T want attention when you're dealing. You could say I formed a so called gang. Some guys are helping me with shit I don't want to deal with. (Of course for free stuff)

I went home after my talk with that Brandon guy. He really ruins my mood every single time I have to talk to him. Like damn just do what I tell you to. It's not that hard.

I bought a small apartment just for me, my best friend Jules moved in last year. My parents never really cared about me or what I did. I wonder if they even know I bought this, I haven't talked to them in years. I finally had some company when Jules lived here. But she has a boyfriend now and I barely see her.

When I walked in I was greeted with her quietly snoring on the sofa. At first I thought some random drunk person got in my apartment but when I saw her I was happy, happy to see her again. It really has been awhile.

I woke her up by accident. "Hey Jules, you good?" I asked.

"I'm okay..." she said it with a lot of doubt and I started to worry.

"What's wrong. Tell me"

"Me and Anthony had a fight, but I don't really wanna talk about it"

I let her head rest in my lap and started stroking her hair, because I know she must be in so much pain know. I am very nosy so I want to know what happened. I'll be patient tho.

"Roe?" she said after a while.

"Yeah?"

"Why haven't you dated anyone since you started dealing?" I got a little startled by that question. I was not expecting this at all.

"I guess I haven't found anyone interesting and I don't want anyone to be my weakness, because they'll get hurt the first when something goes down in business." I responded after a lot of thinking

"Why'd you ask?"

"Anthony started dealing and wants to break up with me." She said quietly

"He what?!!" I could smash that guy in two right now. I told her every single time she talked about him that he was bad news. Yet she wouldn't listen and fell in love. I know she loves him a lot. So I gave him a chance, they've been together for a year now. 

That's not something you should throw away for some dealing.

"Yeah, I yelled at him for not being responsible and shit. But now I'm thinking I might've overreacted, what if I messed it all up by saying those things?" She looked at me with fear in her eyes and a tear rolled down her cheek.

"Hey" I grabbed her hands "You didn't overreact, dealing is totally not worth a relationship. You'll be fine, okay"

"Should I tell him to come over?" She looked at me with glossy eyes.

"I mean, do you feel like talking to him?"

"Yeah, yeah I do."

"Then you should"

Next thing I knew they made up. And were clearly celebrating that. Iykyk, I put my airpods in and fell asleep after a while.