My forever drug (B.E.)

chapter 4

"Where do you want me to take u?"

She was quiet, obviously getting in a spiral again

"Hey!" I yelled to get her to stop spiraling "where do you want me to take you, would you like to go home or go through a drive thru?"

Her breathing was very fast so I put my hand on her thigh to try calm her.

She looked at my hand and grabbed it after thinking for a while. Her blue eyes met mine, but they weren't the same as this morning. They were red and glossy. I pulled in a random parking lot, got out and made my way to the other side of the car to hug her tightly.

She breaks down immediately and puts her head in the crook of my neck. I feel her tears slowly dripping down my neck on my shirt.

"I'm sorry" she says pulling away

"For what"

"I don't want to make you feel uncomfortable or be a burden, I'm sure you have lots of important stuff to do."

"What...no you're absolutely no burden at all, i chose to take you home,i chose to drive you, i chose to get out and have a real conversation. I don't have any plans, so we've got time. We could chill and get some ice cream if you'd like?"

She looked up at me and our eyes met, her blue orbs had turned darker and her eyes were still full of tears.

"Why are you so sweet to me?"

"Why wouldn't i be?" I replied

"You just..., i mean..."

"Spit it out" I chuckled

"You're so cruel to everyone" she told me scared for my reaction

"I don't think I'm cruel, otherwise I wouldn't have so many clients. I have to be cruel to the people who refuse to pay tho, otherwise I'll be broke and people would think they could step all over me. You only met the side I show when I'm working, again...

There's a lot you won't expect from me babygirl"

"Stop calling me that" she tried to look intimidating but a smile grew on her face

"Girl, i saved your ass, I can call you whatever I want. " I said smiling

"Fine" she chuckled

"So do you wanna get ice cream?" I asked her again

"Yeah, I'd love that, could we go somewhere where they have vegan options?"

"For sure, I know a place not to far from here. They have the best vegan ice cream in the world!"

"Wait, are you vegan too?"

"Nah, I'm vegetarian"

"Oh, cool" she said before putting her seatbelt back

I knew she was trying to tell me she wanted to go so I got in my side of the car and started driving.

I bought her her favorite ice cream, which caused a whole argument because she wanted to pay, and I'm now driving to a hidden spot I once found when I had a hard time. I came here to think and enjoy the view.

"We're here" I said when we arrived

She looked around, her mouth slightly open, i think she enjoyed the view.

"This place is beautiful!" She told me excitedly

"Yeah, I know I come here often to calm myself down."

She looked at me as if she was trying to figure something out

"Tell me" she said

"Tell you what? I asked confused

"Tell me what I wouldn't expect from you, tell me about yourself"

"Nah, you'll find out sooner or later anyway"

"How would you know I'd want to meet with you after this?"

I looked at her in shock, but a smile crept on her face which made me realize she was just playing.

"I just know" I smirked

We talked for hours. Once the sun started to set I got us a blanket and she cuddle into me.

We were laying there, watching the sun, enjoying the view and each others company.

"Thank you for taking care of me" Billie said looking into my eyes, turning herself a bit so she was sitting in front of me.

"Anytime babygirl" I smiled

She started blushing when I called her that's adorable.

She has a boyfriend Roe, a boyfriend. Stop it!

She put her finger under my chin and pulled me closer. I wasn't sure what was going on, but I wasn't complaining. Our lips were so close I could feel her warm breaths on my lips.

She looked down from our intense staring and after taking a look at my lips she locked eyes again. This time filled with lust.

That's when I felt her soft lips on mine. The kiss deepened and she grabbed my neck, i pulled her closer by her waist. My hands trail down her back to her ass and she stops.

She gets up and runs to the car, leaving me behind. I'm startled and don't know what to do.

Did she not feel comfortable? Does she feel guilty? Did I do something wrong? Maybe she remembered her boyfriend? FUCK what'd I do.

Does she regret it? Will she ever talk to me again? Am I a bad kisser? Nah definitely not that!

I get up, grabbed our stuff and walk back to the car.