The Untold Letters

Sorry

Dear friend,

Why do we need to end up like this? We had a great start right? Pero bakit eto ang kinalabasan? Have I done something wrong to the extent na hindi mo na ako pinansin at kesa maayos eh mas pinili mong umalis nalang?

I could still remember the first day we met. You were the first friend I hade when I enter college. Other than my classmates whom I met virtually. Ikaw yung una kong nakasama as a college student kahit na hindi tayo magkapareho ng University na pinapasukan. Still, it didn't stop us for being close in a short span of time.

I could still remember, I almost shared everything about my life, especially my lovelife with you habang kumakain tayo ng dinner at yung ulam natin is century tuna kasi tinatamad tayong pumunta sa kainan sa baba dahil na rin sa katamaran natin. Well, I don't know kung yung kinuwento mo sakin that night is as large as mine or as real as mine. But nonetheless, I value every story you told me. Actually, I value everything that we shared for almost two years being friends.

Do you remember when you had a fight with your boyfriend? It was awkward for me to console you.

Because of three reasons.
First, I'm not good at comforting people. Even myself.
Second, I don't know what to say. And lastly, I don't know if you want to be alone or to be comforted by a friend.

So ended up asking if you were fine when obviously, not. And to take some glances at you checking if you're crying or what or leave the room to give you space to cry or think or whatever.

And even when you say things that's below the belt. I don't get mad or diss you. You know why? Because you are my friend and I'm riding your humor. I just ignore those insults you said to me.

Everyone knew me of being to honest. But when it comes to you, I filter my words. Kasi alam ko masasaktan ka marinig ang katotohanan. And that would end our friendship. But I don't want that to happen. So, I filter my words for you.

Whenever you needed me or my help. I always help you kahit na minsan eh you'rr taking me for granted. I don't mind. When you needed my phone, I lend it to you. When you went to you classmate's debut but hindi mo alam yung sakayan papunta doon and asked me to escort you sa sakayan, I did right? Kahit nagmukha akong julalay (A/N: alalay) mo eh hinatid pa din kita.

I know you might say na parang sinusumbat ko sayo ang mga 'to. Or pwede naman akong tumanggi.

Pero hindi. Kasi ginusto ko naman eh. I just want to know kung bakit ka nagalit sakin, samin. I don't remember saying bad things behind you. Kasi we never mention you on our chit-chats.

Whatever reason behind your sudden anger, I hope you can tell it to us. Someday. And whatever that is, I'm sorry.

I hope we can be friends again, someday. :)

Hoping,
Theia