Twisted love (Slow updates)

Chapter 1 The day before Departure

2 years earlier

Gazing into his heavenly blue eyes is always my favorite way to start the morning. The cold Michigan air leaves my room cool, but his body keeps me warm. His presence keeps me warm. He is my warmth. I can't believe how lucky I am to have this man who cares about me so much. I just can't get over how perfect he is. Sometimes I wonder if it's all to good to be true. Pushing that thought aside, I try and think about the great day I have planned today. I can feel his eyes bore into me and it makes me blush.

"Good morning Marcus." I say softly.

"Good morning angel." He tells me.

I cuddle into his chest and sigh contently. He wraps his arms around me and kisses the top of my head. I lift my head to look up at him and see he's already smiling at me. This man. My man; is the love of my life. I just can't believe he's leaving me tomorrow for his new job in New York while I have to stay here in Michigan for school. I frown slightly and immediately regret it.

"Babe, I'm sorry I have to go but you know this is my dream." He says.

I look down completely upset with myself for showing him how much him leaving is affecting me. I can't bare the thought of being without him. He's the one person who tries to understand me and loves me for being me. I hate myself for being selfish but I can't help it. I know we've had this conversation a million times but he's leaving tomorrow. I can't be upset with him anymore. I need to love him and make him believe I will be ok.

He grabs my chin and lifts my face up towards his. His touch is gentle.
"What's going on in that head of yours Ally? You know I hate it when you keep things in." he says sternly.

I look into his eyes and tell myself he can't know what's really going on in my mind. We will only fight about this again and that's not what I want. I never want to upset him. I can't help feeling down about him leaving but I hate that I can't show him how I'm truly feeling. I've never been apart from him before. Marcus and I do everything together. He takes me to school. He has lunch with me almost everyday. On days where I have schoolwork up to my ears, he stays over and keeps me company. Days he's working I stop by his law firm and bring him coffee. We're always together. I don't understand how he's completely ok with leaving me. I know this is his dream job. I just hate how far away he's going to be. New York is 10 hours away if I want to drive and see him. Ugh....why can't I just be the supportive girlfriend he needs right now and not worry about how I'm going to go on everyday life without him. I'll live. I'll be fine. Yeah, sure I will. No snap out it! You're going to be fine. You're going to talk to him everyday. You're going to Skype with him almost every night. Everything will be fine. Oops, I just realized I haven't answered him.
My lip curves into a forced smirk.

"Nothing babe, just picturing how great you're going to look in a suit." I say hoping he doesn't realize I just lied to him. God, I hate this.

"I can't wait to be in them everyday of my life. I can't believe I'm going to be working at one of the top law firms baby! This doesn't feel real." Marcus says enthusiastically.
I force a smile and bring my lips to his. I don't want to think about how far away he's going to be, or the amount of women he's going to be around. No. Right now I want to be with the man I love. I need to get my head out of my ass and stop being selfish. Why am I being so selfish? I push all my thoughts away and kiss him. I kiss him to show him how much I love him. How much I already miss him and how much he means the world to me.

He cups my cheeks and rolls me over. I laugh and shake my head no. Marcus's face changes from excited to flat out pissed and I know this day is going to be shit now. Great. Good going Ally.

"Marcus, you know I'm not going to have sex. You know I want to wait until I'm married. Why do you get so upset about it?" I say a little more harshly than I planned to.