Savior/Luke Hemmings

Just the begining

Another one of those nights I woke up screaming and sweat dripping down my face. I was having one of my usual nightmares of my mom hitting me and I couldn't get away. I am with my grandma and she has been taking care of me for more than 2years now and my mom has never came looking for me. I was a mistake. At least that's what I was told. Anyways I don't get much sleep I get around 5 to 6 hours a night. I don't have many friends. If 6 counts as a lot. Olivia has been there for me forever she comforts me and tells me I'm worth something I have considers cutting myself and I have but I'm not addicted. Second is Devin he was my first brother and he is always there for me when I need him and he always says that you are important and that your on the earth for a reason he's very inappropriate all the time and is very nice and caring.Next is Ashton he's just like a ball of sunshine and happiness he always makes me feel better he has been through almost the same stuff as me. He tells me the same thing and he always tries to make me feel like I belong and takes me out when I'm in a depression he's like a brother to me. Next is Michael he the best he's wild and he's like a little kitten. We met a little while ago through Ashton but anyways he loves me to death one time I tried to kill myself and he found me and never cried so much and never left my side he's just like the best person in general. Next is Calum he's like a little puppy and he know me and my personality and he loves to cuddle with me sometimes If I have a really bad night I would call him and he would come over and we will cuddle and tell me I'm worth something he would watch chick flicks with me and I would fall asleep happy. Did I mention that the kid like to get naked! Lastly Luke he looks like a little penguin he's the best cuddlier and the only boy that has ever said he loves me and that I have to admit I love him. But he's different from the rest he's like the little breadstick that has ever walked the earth and no words can describe how much I love him. I don't think he loves me I feel like he said that to make me feel like I was worth something like the other guys do I feel like I'm so out of place and will never be loved......