Lost 🥺 .

not right ❤️ .

so right after me and kentrell posting on instagram and shit saying how we for each-other he been not answering the phone nor text

i don't know what i did i thought he was having one of them kentrell days but nope he cut me off for good  i check his ig yesterday and he took me off and out his bio

it was just pictures of him & his merch or new music he was finna drop i was no where to be found i was sad but i wasn't gone trip

i took my post down today because why keep him on mines when he don't gone me on his i got tried of being so distant so i text him

my 💚
kentrell i don't know what i did but i'm tired of acting so distance can u at least text me back and let me know your okay or you doing good
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he left me on read i ain't gone lie that kinda made me sad like why is it doing this i never did nothing to him i just cared for him if he mad

he need to let me know instead of staying away from me like i actually love him and this what he do he been acting like this for 2 weeks now

i let it slide these couples days but i'm sick of it now i put my hair in a bun and put on my leggings and a hoodie i don't care i'm showing up at his house

his house was like 25 minutes away from mines not that far i pulled up and a unfamiliar car was in the drive way i ain't even gone be mad

because i knew this was a lie and i knew he was just doing this because i was hurt i didn't even knock i walk right in and sat on the couch

i wasn't finna say a word i sat on the couch and a girl came down

"umm bae who is this bitch" she said

"bae what bitch u talking ab-" he said stopping in his sentence

i got up he must like crazy cause i'll show him crazy

bae huh you only did that shit because i was hurt huh kentrell i said knocking over his glass vase

"dude chill please" he said

you came to the hospital knowing i lost my baby and post me on yo instagram saying how much you love me i said throwing the tv now laughing

you been avoiding me for 2 weeks now to be laid up with a hoe who prolly only want to money and bitch you say anything i'll kill you right here in this living room i said smiling and she stayed quiet

"okay look i'm sorry i just been off drugs i don't know people getting in my head and shii" he said

no i understand you like seeing me crazy huh i said now knocking over all the glass pictures he had

"BRO WTF KODI YOU TRIPPEN" he scream

i'm trippen i said laughing with pain

kentrell i'm trippen because you laid in my bed with me and protect me and cared for me while i was down bad hurt you was there for me i have nobody but myself i just lost my baby 4 weeks ago i couldn't even see he/she smile kentrell and you say i'm trippen i said crying

when ever im around you im happy and when we don't talk i go fucking crazy losing my mind thinking something happen to you literally i had love for you and i can see now that i was just another one of yo bitches huh i said laughing again

"umm girl u crazy asf how u go-" she said

please stfu i'll go get my gun out my car and shoot u right in to mf head say anther word and this will be yo last day bitch i said smiling

kentrell look at me and he look at me crazy

this what you wanted huh kentrell well now you gotta it meet hell kentrell u don't have to worry about me don't come to my house my just kill you there i said laughing

and oh yea u don't let me see you out or that's yo ass i said blowing her a kiss and winking at kentrell

i ain't no crazy bitch but i'm hurt i don't wanna be here anymore the moment i felt love the moment he gotta ruin it i speed to my house

soon as i open the door i rip ever picture of me and kentrell i bust everything i ain't care no more i was hurt i got a knife and start cutting myself

i didn't care this was for pain this for everything i did for him i don't wanna stay on earth anymore i wanna be with my brother i don't care i cut my legs i cut my arm and then

it was so much anger i stab myself right in my stomach and then stab myself in my chest i don't know what i was doing but

i know i didn't care anymore i just wanna leave i took the knife out and place it on the ground i don't know what happen but everything went black