Natasha R. x Female reader AVENGERS ONE SHOTS

let me go....

TW: suicide, suicidal thoughts, mentions of self harm.

Y/N's POV

Kill yourself....

End it all....

Nobody's gonna care...

I shoot up out of the bed in a cold sweat. Breath raged. I look over at the clock on my beside table. 3:00 AM . Of course. I get out of bed and walk into the bathroom. Seeing that Im only in a pair of boxers and a sports bra. I look in the mirror, my eyes instantly catching the scars. Old and new.

Fuck it, Im doing it. Nobody's gonna give a shit.

I walk back out of the bathroom and into my room. I grab some sweat pants and a matching tank top. I grab my phone and some headphones. If I'm going out, Im going out listening to music.

I put the note I had prepared a month ago, on my desk. The note had a few things.

I put on a pair of slides and walk out of my room. I make my way to the roof of the tower and look around the city. I walk closer to the edge and turn my back to the city.

I look at the time again. 3:30. "You couldn't save me. But you cant let me go." Goes through my headphones and I lean of the edge, almost like a trust fall, but no one'll catch me.

I closed my eyes and just listen to the beat. "How'd it get so dark? I saw stars. Stars." Was the last thing I heard before everything went blank.

Natasha's POV

I yawn as I get up and look at the clock. 7:45. I get out of bed and stretch. I wash up and get ready for training with the others.

I walk into the gym to see everyone but Y/n. I brush it off and go warm up. "Y/n's never this late." Peter says, worried. Y/n's like the older sister he never had. When he was first recruited they instantly clicked. "I'll go check." Steve says and he walks out the room. A few minutes later he comes back, not with Y/N, but with piece of paper.

"She's not in her room, but this note was on her desk. I has some weird squiggly thing on it though." He says and I snatch the paper from him "It's in cursive." I mumble as I read the note.

'Don't bury me in a fucking dress, please. Also, I know Peter is obsessed with my car, so give him this when he starts driving, fully payed off. I'm happier this way</3.'

My eyes trail down the piece of paper to see Y/n's car keys "What does it say?" Tony asks and my eyes start watering "She, uh she-" I'm cut off by Vision running into the room "Y/n is outside, laying on the ground, not moving, or breathing, has no pulse, and is surrounded by blood." He says and everyones eyes widen 'Oh no.'

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(A/n: part 2??)