July 12,2021
5:52PM
Orlando,FL
My first journal writing so here I go, kind of introduce myself I'm assuming. Hi, my name is Shanelle and I'm currently 22 years old, raised in Orlando, Florida. Born on May 28th, so yes I'm a Gemini, the sign most people seem to hate for some reason lol. Writing always been a easy way for me to express myself especially when it's hard for me to talk about to others. I wanted to start writing in a journal to share my thoughts, feelings and events throughout the day.
Today was one of my resting days from work which is good because I've been working back to back since I don't know when. But a girl is EXHAUSTED, and I needed to relax a little bit. Granted, I don't do anything on my off day anyways, it's good to just chill in my comfort zone. Glad I was off today also, because finally my baby came today. Not a actual person sadly, more like my new iPhone 12. The purple one, yes it was just too cute for me to buy it so I figured why not.
But I've also been preparing my self really for a specific day I would never forget. My mother had passed away last August due to cancer, and as time goes by it would officially be a full year since she's passed. Mentally, still dealing with it and continue to live my everyday life. It's been hard, not only for me, but for my dad and my brothers. My depressive episodes have been absolutely terrible, and so far things been okay. Work has been keeping me busy, and a form of distraction so it's given my mental a break. Nothing really has been going on and still half the day left so I'll come back if something happens.
10:13PM
I decided to go to the gym with my aunt and we had a good ole little workout. Ended it off with eating Zaxbys but that's okay. Oh forgot to say, one of the guys I had feelings for sent me a snap today and was like "Hey stranger" I was fucking surprised and my heart was going 'pitta patta'. It came with a photo of him wearing a hat I had got him back in 2020 I believe. It made me feel good that he still has it. My dumbass forgot to put this way in the beginning of my journal but it just came to me so. My ass is going to sleep, cause the workout I did tired my ass out.
SJR 🤍
