into the realm of darkness

don't understand

Has type laid upon tharn, he stared to the wall, to then move his head to place his head to his hardened body to look up.
His eyes darted, to then take in a deep breathe to then get off to lay to the other side to his back to look to the ceiling, he then slowly peered his eyes down to look over himself to be fully clothed.
Gritting his teeth a bit, he then sat up to shake his head.
For it had been 5 years, wearing clothes to be on top of the vampire, this felt strange to him.
He then rolled his eyes.
You should be over the moon this vampire didn't want nor ask you to take off your clothing, and yet you are acting has such, what is wrong with you!?
Type then looked to the vampire in his frozen state to then gulp, his eye brow then went up.
Wait.....if I am able to be too that room, and I won't feel any pain.... Maybe I....
Types lips parted to then take a hand to the blanket to then take it away to then get up to go straight to the door to look upon the back, he gulped once more to then dart his eyes.
He took a deep breathe to then open it, the only thing that was drawing him to try and get away from this vampire was ryo, and his desire to see him.
Opening the door, type kept his head forward to then take steps away, he placed his hand to his stomach, to furrow his brow, he didn't feel any pain.
His eyes then widen has he turned his head to look back, he was getting far.
Maybe, whatever this is..... Is stopping and going away, maybe I can finally get away from this miserable con.....
Type then stopped moving to then turn his head about to eye the floor to sign.
Tharn may not have told type a lot from his past has they were together, however type could tell he didn't have a great one.
Type then shook his head.
Why should you care? He forced you into this with a lie, now go back to ryo! You need to understand what had happened.
Type then took his hand off to then go to the front door, has he placed his hand upon it, he made a face to then turn his head to eye back.
He then shook his head.
You need to leave.
Nodding, he then opened the door to then take a step forth to then hang his head to then be in extreme amount of pain to his stomach.
Type immediately, went back inside to then place himself to the back of the door, to breathe heavily.
He then balled his fist to then hit the door to grit his teeth in anger.
Damnit!
Why does this keep happening!
Signing, he then went forward to go back to the bedroom, to then stand before the bed to eye the statue like vampire.
"Why..... Why did you do this to me? Why couldn't we bring ryo to this and.... And...."
Type then turned to go sit to the edge to then eye the floor.
He then placed his hands to the edge to grip.
Do you.... Really wish for ryo to be apart of this life? To be around all of this? I know that since this vampire has gotten his investments something will come about to what he was planning, things are going to pick up, won't be here anymore, most to the likely will be surrounded by his kind more frequently, that is not the life I wish for ryo, not even a life i wish for me, however I am forced to it, but ryo.... Doesn't have to be.....
Type then placed his arms to his legs to then place his hands to his eyes to rub.
Ryo......I don't care that you are or are with the doctor, I can't stop thinking of you, I just wish to see if your alright, to see what has become of you.....I hate being alone..... Hate being without you..... Hate this life..... However I have no clue to what to do about it, can not go anywhere a way from this vampire without being in a large amount of pain......I don't understand.....I do not understand anything.... Why did he chose me, why did he break his promise to being you along, why won't he let me go?
Types mind started to swirl with unanswered questions he has aching to ask but never seemed to have the guts to.
Taking his hands down he then stared to the back of the door to sign heavily.
I hate this life and I can't do anything about it.
Type made a face to then stand to ball his fists to eye the floor to think.
How can I get away from this vampire? Away from this life? He won't allow me any knifes or even forks so....
Types eyes started to slowly open, he then took his wrist to his mouth to place his teeth to the skin without piercing through.
He breathed heavily with the action.
Maybe, I can end my own life with taking the blood that is within me?
Type then closed his eyes to take in a deep breathe, to then let a tear roll down.
He started to think of ryo.
Type then moved his head back a bit to let his canines come out.
"I....love you ryo....."
Type took in a very long and deep calling breathe to picture him to his mind.
He then tried to sink his teeth in, until his whole body went backwards.
Breathing heavily, he gulped has he felt familiar cold hands wrapped about his body, one was wrapped to his stomach the other had a hand to his forehead to keep his head straight, his arms were bound in-between him and tharn.
Tharn went to his ear to bare his teeth.
"I can not believe what I was too witness, now half breed, there will be a greater punishment then what you have received with having no cutlery, just you wait!"
Type gulped to stare forward.
What..... Is he going to do now? Type wondered nervously.