The convenience of love

Part 29

It's been a month since I got the internship at James enterprise things are great so far even though some people are too much to handle some are faking friending me to get to Xander others are jealous of me they even asked me how I seduced him since am not beautiful to be with him but I handle it well just ignore them and do my job I take my classes in the morning and I start to work at 11' i warned Xander not to intervene in my work and it hasn't been that hard since he is almost not here anymore it's been even almost two weeks since I've seen him outside the company he is been busy than ever they are opening new hotels in Africa he asked me to go with him but I refused I really need to work so I spend every night at his apartment I feel like I've moved in but he comes after I've slept and he goes before I wake up the thing that tells me he even came is the bathroom

"Hey I feel like I haven't seen you even Bebe miss you "lily said taking her pizza we are having lunch together before I go to work since she is working on her book she doesn't come to the campus every day like me
"I miss her too I will come over tomorrow night it's Friday thank god" I was tired I needed time to relax in weekend I don't work so it's going to be great
"Yeah and we can go out after with all the girls " lily suggested I agree that's what I need exactly

When I got to work mrs Jules called for me to work on some numbers and I got to work
" oh god even if it's one night it would be enough he looks like he can blow my mind"
"Yeah but I will try when we get in South Africa I swear I will be fucked by Xander James "
" I don't even sees what he see in That intern she is not that perfect "
" I will tell you how he is when I come back I heard he is big"
"Aaaaahhhgguuuuhh" I was in the bathroom and some women were whispered talking about my boyfriend so I remain inside and listened to them they thought they are alone
" if he loved her she would be an intern "
"Are you sure it's not going to be hard to get him"
"No well we've been talking I have he even told me that am a Very hard working beautiful woman yesterday he complimented me "
Would he really cheat on me I tried to trust him but my head was not agreeing with me I haven't had sex with him even though I feel ready we didn't have time for it with him being busy and I didn't know how to bring it up did he gets tired waiting for me is he really going after this woman my mind was blowing up my head started to hurt

After my work I gave them to mrs Jules she thanked me she is a sweet woman in her late thirties we grown close today Xander was in the office I knew from the gossip I had from those girls in the bathroom he didn't call me I didn't even know he came back from settle on Monday he is leaving for South Africa I don't know what to do even though am mad at him but I really miss him soo much it hurts to miss someone you live with it's like I don't exist to him anymore i wanted to go see him in his office but first am the one who told him to separate work from private life's second what if he is busy and thirdly does he even miss me too that the thing am scared to find out
I went out to go when I see Joseph now it's confirmed I know he is here he came back and didn't bother to call me to tell me I took my phone called lily
"Lily I really don't know what to do " I said as he pick up tears were forming in my eyes I feel so stupid why did I let this girls gets in my mind
"What happened sweetheart "she sounds worried
"I kinda heard things at work about Xander and we haven't been together in a while so it went to my mind I feel like shit and I miss him and he came back he didn't even call me I am trying lily I am trying to trust him but my mind is going crazy " I rambled tears falling down am walking in the road people are looking at me
"Hey hey where is Xander I thought you told me he was in settle "
"He came back he is in his office "
" then go in his office talk to him"
"Am scared and I don't even know why"
"Just go there Wendy even if he is busy this is like the second week he needs to know that you need him also go there " and I just did what she told me because of my make up were mixed with tears I looked like a mess but i didn't care I got to the last floor I went to his assistant
"Is Xander inside " I asked her she was typing on her laptop he look at me when she sees the condition an in she answered quickly
"Yeah he is in but he is in a meeting "
"Can I wait for him here" I ask her
"Yeah you can take a sit here" I sit there she had a small office but it was cute there was a picture of a small boy "is he your " I ask pointing at the picture
"Yeah it's my baby his name is elaijah "she smiles at me "not to disrespect but you know you look like ......"
"Shit I know " I complete her sentence
Xander came out with two old men who are in their mid fifties they said their goodbyes when they got at the elevator he come back he saw me
"What are you doing here sweetheart " he ask me looking in my eyes "what happened babe " I didn't care that he didn't call me I didn't care about the bathroom girls I couldn't care about anything except being in his arms I run into him putting my head in his chest and I let out all the tears coworkers were staring at us but I didn't care that I was creating a scene I cried my heart out he just lifted me in his arms bridal style going to his office he sits down on his chair "baby tell me what wrong Please you are getting me worried " my breath started to go get hard he hold my face in his hands "Look at me baby just take a deep breath " I did and count from one to ten in my head that's what my therapist told me to do

I lay in his arms holding me tight Xavier came to the office but Xander told him that he will call him and he left asking if I was okay when I came down
"Can you tell me what happened now " he asked rubbing his fingers in my head I like it when he do that
" why didn't you call me to tell me you came back " I ask my head still in the cock of his neck
"Am sorry babe I've been busy recently I will make it up to you I promise "he answered truthfully
" I missed you " I mummered to him
" I missed you too sweetheart am so sorry I got busy with this things but it will be done with this month I promise "he told me kissing my chick
It was past seven I got off him
"I have plans with the girls we are all going out " I said sitting on his desk
"Oh I thought we were spending the night together "
"Don't you have work to do "
"It can wait no rush "
"Finish your work am going out tonight I feel like my head need it "
"The is something you re not telling me" I knew hiding something like this from him is not going to be easy but I promised myself that an going to work on my insecurities and I have to learn to trust him for this to work so am not telling him anything
"No am just happy to be with you " I connects our lips and it turns out we both needed it

I went out with the girls that night we got drunk we were at the club in the vip dancing our minds out
When it was past midnight we took the cab to go home i find Xander sleeping I crowded on him he was naked on top laying on his back using his arm like a pillow I kiss his stomach going to his neck I bite him "Wendy what is this" he asked in his morning voice which is so hot I giggled on his neck
I kiss his sharp jawline
"Are you drunk " he asked me trying to get me off him but I hold him tight
"Xander I love you " I repeatedly said to him sucking on his neck am sure there is going to be hickeys in the morning but I don't care
"Are you giving me hickeys "
"To mark what's mine " I giggled to myself " you know what I want you " I get up from him removing my clothes I didn't wear a bra that's why when the dress is removed am remaining in my thong only
"Sweetheart What are you doing " Xander shuttered sitting up I pull down my thong I remained naked
I sit on him but he pulled shits to cover me "I want you Xander show me how you love me  " I rub my butt on him I was sitting on him
"Wendy you are drunk you don't know what you are doing" he tried to push me I wrap my legs on him
"I know what I want Xander you don't want me " I ask tears forming
"No babe I will do that when you are sober not when you are going to forget it in the morning " he tried to explain
"Yeah I know you don't want me am inexperienced and all the women are throwing themselves at you what am I anyway" I said getting from him I go to the Cauchy in the room lay there "am sleeping here am used to it you are no longer here and I know you are sleeping with other women I heard it but do you know why I didn't say anything to you " I ask him he is staring at me listening to everything "because I love you and I want to trust you but my head is going against me my heart and my mind are having urgement but I love you Xander I don't want to lose you " I dose of like that