I hate you [ illumi x reader ]

9

(y/n pov)

I sat in the big living room of a man named hisoka as he weirdly stared at me licking his lips. I could feel his blood lust as if it was just oozing out of him. "What's up with you?" I asked feeling more tired now as I was getting my senses back. "Nothing I just really admire you~" He said laughing to himself softly. I looked over at illumi who just sat watching the  conversation unfold. He noticed me staring and looked back at me. "What?" He asked. "When you meant friend you really meant this weirdo?" I asked. "Well yeah." He said. I sighed rolling my eyes.

"Don't you have any others?" I asked. "No." He replied. "Of course you don't." I said getting up. "Where you going y/n?" He asked. "Outside." I said. "I have a garden so if you want you can go out back there~" Said Hisoka with a smirk. "Sure.." I said weirded out by the man heading to garden.

In the garden I sat on a stone seat near a pond surrounded by flowers. "It's okay y/n just sober up a bit more and then we can go back to the estate." I said to myself. "Yeah y/n sober up." Illumi teased as he sat next to me. "I hate you." I said sighing. "I know." He said. I looked up at him. He was smiling.

"Hey your-" I then was cut off. "Shut up." He said. He didn't even let me mention his smile. I then stared down laughing to myself. Illumi could be annoying but he was really something. I couldn't believe I would be marrying him soon. "Hey did you know about this?" I asked. "About what?" He replied. "Us getting married.." I finally said. "No I found out when I saw you." He replied. "Oh right." I said back.

We would be marrying meaning that we would spend the rest of our lives together. Why was this all coming to my mind now? Did I really have feelings for him? Were all these thoughts coming to me because of my drinking?

I held my head as it pounded a bit. I regret trying to show off to Illumi. I really over did it this time. "You okay?" He asked. "Yeah." I replied. I let go of my head and looked down. I then continued thinking and thought about if illumi actually liked me. I mean I know i'm annoying, but did he actually like me as if he wants to marry me? Even if he's forced?

"Illu?" I said. The dark haired man looked at me with his black eyes and hummed in response. "Do you actually have feelings for me?" I asked. His eyes widened as if I said something wrong. He looked away in thought. "I'm sorry that was stupid of me." I said getting up.

"No it's just I never really thought about it." He said plainly. Suddenly I felt as if my heart broke. I was going to marry this man in less than a month and he never even thought about his feeling towards me. I get hes an emotionless wreck but it still hurt. "Oh..i see." I said as I didn't notice tears streaming down my face. "We should go." I suggested walking away.

Illumi didn't chase after me like I wanted him to. He really wasn't like that at all. Instead the whole car ride was silent.