A broken smile (Being Rewritten)

My lies

Germany's POV

It's another one of those days, sad and lonely, the only one I have is my dog, I know that school is going to start in a week, but I don't really have any friends, so what's the point of getting happy about school starting next week? I should just lay in bed, who would even notice if I go the first day and never go again? No one knows me there, I think, so there's a chance that no one would notice, plus, no one can make friends that fast, but someone can make enemies with someone in just a minuet of knowing them.

After a minuet of me just lying in bed axel, my dog, come and lays on the bed with me, I think he can tell it's one of those days, he usually knows when it is, he always makes me feel better on these kinds of days, he's always here for me, unlike people, people just judge me, they don't like me, they make fun of me, they call me names and make me fell dumb, axel doesn't do that, he listens to me, he makes sure I'm okay, he ''talks" to me when I'm sad and lonely, people aren't like dogs, dogs are nice, people are not.

I feel as though axel understands my pain, he's been around me for a long time, I've told him everything that's wrong, he always comes to help cheer me up when I cry, he's always here for me, I had friends, but we don't really talk much anymore, not since they went to another school, we haven't really kept in touch, we do talk on the phone over text sometimes though, I hope Italy and Japan are doing okay, at least I hope there doing better than me, being sad and only having a dog to talk to and be around while their lives crumble to the ground around them, I hope they don't have to deal with that, the same thing that's happening to me.

Me and axel lied in bed for a while, then I finally sat up for the first time this morning, I just sat there and stared at the wall, wondering if I should even get up today, it's probably going to be the same as everyday, full of nothing but boredom sitting in the house having no one but myself and axel to talk to.

I stand up, finally not being useless, and go downstairs to see what I can do so I'm not just completely bored, but I might just go back to my room and watch videos on my phone like I usually do, I don't really want to do anything, axel follows me downstairs, I look at the time and realize that it's noon, I go to the fridge and grab an orange to eat and I get axel some food too, I peel the orange and eat it as axel eats his food, I like oranges, they make me feel better on days like this.

I pull out my phone to see if I have any notifications, and to my surprise I have a message from japan.

"Hi Germany!"

"HI japan, how are you?"

"I'm good, you?"

"I'm alright"

"Sooooo, me and italy are in town and we were wondering if you would like to meet up with us?"

I instantly got really happy by seeing that message from japan, I smile brightly and then respond.

"Yes, of course, where are we meeting up at?"

"The park, it's easy for all of us to get to really quick"

"Okay, I'll see you there"

"Okay, see you soon"

I put my phone down smiling as I can finally see my friends again after so long, I go back to my room and put my shoes and socks on then grab my jacket, I know that it's going to get a bit cold later, so it's good to have it, I go back downstairs and grab my phone and put it into my pocket, I look at axel and he looks at me, "I'll be back in a few hours, be a good boy and keep an eye on the house for me" he wagged his tail, I smile then leave the house and go to the park.

I get to the park and I see the two idiots I'm meeting up with pushing each other around like children, I walk over to them and they both look at me and instantly brightly smile, I brightly smile back, they both hug me and I hug back, we all very clearly missed each other, I feel like crying out of happiness, but I stop myself from cry, the two stop hugging me and japan finally speaks up "what should we do guys? We could always go and play at the creek like we always used to" "Yeah, we could, or we could go see if we can go find someone else our age that we may be able to bug, maybe America?" italy suggests, I have never really payed attention to anyone other than our small group of friends, mostly because vater never liked anyone else, so my only friends were italy and japan, but that was enough for me "America?" I ask confused of who italy was talking about "Yeah, america, you never really talked to others, so it doesn't really surprise me that you don't know him, even though you probably should" italy responds, I feel my chest tighten, I know he's right, but it hurt me to hear italy say that, I know he didn't mean to be rude or anything, but it just brought back the feeling of being worthless I had earlier.

"Yeah, I probably should know him, shouldn't I?" I say, trying to ignoring the feeling I now had

"Yeah, but it's alright that you don't, I understand that you've never really liked talking to someone" italy said, his words made the feeling lift a little bit, but it was still there

"alright guys, I say we should go find america and bother him until he decides to join us in an adventure" japan says, catching both mine and italy's attention

"Okay" both me and italy respond to japan

Japan grabs me and italy by the arm, I try not to yelp in pain when she grabs my arm, I'm glad that neither of them had noticed the bandages yet though, I keep myself quiet as we walk, I don't really know where we're going, so I just let her drag me, silently hoping for her to let go of my arm soon, which she does after only around a minuet of us walking, I follow close behind her, still having no clue of where we are going, italy is walking next to her, I think it's better for me to be a bit behind them, I don't want them to notice the bandages and question them, because I know I wont be able to lie to them because they would know right away that its a lie.

after a few minuets of us walking we get to a rather big house, japan walks up the the door and knocks on it as me and italy stay back and watch, we all wait for someone to open the door, after a few seconds of waiting someone does, a tall boy, well, taller than me, we had a red white red flag with a leaf in the middle of the flag, he smiled at japan.

"Hello, what can I do for you?" he asked "I'm looking for America" japan responded "Okay, I'll go get him" he said then went back into the house, after another minuet someone else came to the door, his flag was complicated, there was a blue square on the right corner of his face with a lot or stars on it, and 13 stripes, seven red, six white "Hello" the man said to japan "HI america" japan replies, america looked at italy and I, I felt wired and out of place there, "you want me to join you on an adventure I'm guessing?" america says, just staring at me and italy "you guessed right, so you gonna come?" japan said "Sure, why not, it'll be some fun to get out of the house today, give me a minuet" he says "Okay, be quick" japan says as the man walks into the house.

Japan joins me and italy, she looks at me and I assume she notices how uncomfortable I look "It's okay germany, he's really nice, I think you two will get along great together" japan says to me with a smile, trying to reassure me, all I can do is nod at her, not really wanting to talk.

Eventually america comes out of the house again and joins us standing around "so, what's the plan?" america asks "we aren't entirely sure, what do you think we should do?" italy responds "hmmm, maybe we could go explore the forest behind that really old building that hasn't been used in years?" america suggests "That's not a very good idea" I say without thinking, and I feel myself get embarrassed because of it "Why is it not a good idea?" america asks, I know I have to respond with the truth, but I know he'll laugh at me if I tell the truth "Because there's a lot of dangerous things in there" I say, knowing that its not a very good lie, but it'll hopefully work "Did you explore it already? Is that why you have the bandages on your arms?" america asks, I'm surprised he noticed but italy and japan hadn't "ja, I did, it's not safe to go there" I say, hoping that he believes my lie, hoping he doesn't ask anymore questions "what kind of things are in there?" america asks and I feel myself slowly getting angrier that more questions he asks "What does that matter? we aren't going there anyways" I respond, not knowing if I need to keep lying when I don't really want to

America starts walking, and the rest of us start following, not knowing what he's doing, after a while I realize we're at the old building my father used to work at, the building america was talking about earlier, I feel myself freeze up "we wont explore the forest, so how about we explore the house instead? I'm sure that there's nothing too dangerous in here" america says as he breaks down the front door, I get really scared, knowing that this isn't going to end well.

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1776 words, That's a surprising amount once you really think about it, anyways, I hope you all enjoyed the first part of this book, it's going to be a mess all the way through, but we'll suffer through it together though, hopefully, have a good day/night/whatever, don't forget to drink water and take care of yourself <3

Also, quick side note, I may mostly only post chapters at night because I don't have a sleep schedule anymore and I go to bed around 4-5AM where I am, so that's fun, I also don't know if the updates will be slow or not because I might not have motivation at some points but have a lot of motivation at others.

-A nameless face