Just For Now | Book 1

Chapter 7

CHAEYOUNG

We got to the place and it's super luxurious and expensive, how can she afford all of this??

"You don't really have to take me to this place" I looked at her, she might spent alot.

"Psh you don't have to worry, I'll do anything for you" she said in a very calming way, should I be worried?

She guided me inside and we both sat facing each other. I feel so embarrassed I didn't expect her to waste her money on this whole thing. Am I really that lucky?

"Anyways, I'll be having a party tomorrow. Please go.. and bring your friends too!" I said happily.

"Tomorrow? What's tomorrow?" She asked. Stupid me,.of course she don't know I just met her a week ago and then become my girlfriend.. aish.

"My bestfriend's birthday. She'll be celebrating at my house as always" I said and smiled.

We're enjoying ourselves when this waiter came, he's really fancy and basically everyone around here is very fancy.

"Here's some water. Your foods will be ready in a few minutes" he said and smiled he left afterwards after making sure we're comfortable enough.

"You already ordered?" I whisper

"Yeah, basically just ordered almost all of the menu. Don't worry everything is already paid. Don't even think about it!" She then hold my hands on the table. Basically, she's the one who's hating to be clingy now I can feel she's starting to be comfortable.

"Sorry" she said in an awkward way and remove her hands from her. I was enjoying that to be honest.

"It's okay" I smiled at her.

JISOO

Okay, she's not bad after all. She's actually the sweetest and I'm trying really hard to be comfortable with her. I can sense that she's trying to avoid me earlier, 'cause I think she can sense that I'm a little uncomfortable with her clingy side, but thinking about it, I feel bad. She's innocent.

I tried to kiss her earlier to shake the awkwardness off her but I just can't kiss her yet! Everytime I do something to Chaeyoung I feel like betraying Jinyoung. I can't text or call him everytime because of time difference, but no matter where this go I'll still love him. FOREVER.

Back to Chaeyoung, I'm trying to be comfortable with her again by holding her hands. I can tell she's really shocked by my sudden actions but afterwards she enjoys it. I have to remove my hands so I can't be too suspicious, any of these things I'll do to Chaeyoung didn't happen to someone that came from me!

Jinyoung mostly do the sweet stuffs to me back then, but now I'm doing it for someone else, and to think of it, it really hurts. I feel like I'm a cheater even tho this whole thing is fake.

I don't expect that I'll be dating this girl. I expect us to be friends, but what can I say? She already loves me and we're dating. I haven't told her if I feel the same way, or maybe I did? I forgot!

Just to clarify things this whole dating thing is fake, for now.

Why on Earth did I say for n-

I got dragged out from my thinking when I smell the foods filling the table.

"Dig in.." see? I don't even know what to call her, by her name? Or our unofficial call sign?

We enjoy our food as more started to come. She's talkative so we eat and talk and laugh, I looked at her and I saw she has a little sauce on her near upper lip. I gestured her to wipe the sauce away, and she did. I was expecting some romantic scenes here, but why??? Okay I'm starting to have mixed feelings now, for that boy? Or this girl?

Oh no...

I don't like where this is going.

I feel some awkward tensions again, I drink my water like nothing is happening to me but it didn't work. I notice Chaeng's right hand that looks unbothered 'cause she's left handed. I hold it and embraced it. Her hand is bigger than mine so I just carrassed it up and down, I pretended to eat like I didn't notice I'm holding her hand. I looked at her secretly and she's blushing, I can't help but smile as I feel hotness on my cheeks. I carrased it one more time, it's really soft that I want to hold it forever.

I played with her fingers continuing the pretends. I acted that I'm busy on my food and haven't notice a thing, I heared her fake cough so I handed her, her cup.

"Are you okay?" I asked handing her the cup of water.

"I'm fine, it's just that.. uh.." she tilted her head towards her right hand. I pretended to be shocked and remove my hand immediately and ask for forgiveness.

As the innocent Chaeyoung as she is. She accepted my sorry.

I was about to dip into the sauce, our hands touched and I looked at her. It's my first time actually staring at her with compassion. She is really beautiful, why haven't I notice it in the first place? He eyes sparkled as the lights were shining, he lips that I wish I had kissed before. I'm guessing that it might be so soft, soft as my favorite pillow.

What the heck am I saying?

"I'm sorry you can go first"

I lost count, 'cause I'm counting my sorry since earlier. Damn.

"What?" I hear her voice once again. And fuck I am staring her once again! If eyes can speak they'll probably say something about Chaeyoung.

"I... Love... You... Yes! I love you!"

She looked at me I'm shock. Then I realized what I say. My cheeks turned back into red once again and I can feel my cheeks burning. It's making me into a tomato!

I hate this feeling!

But somehow..I kinda like to stare at her eyes.

Is there something wrong with me? Should I go to the hospital???

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