love and heart break

happy?

Have you ever had that one person that could make you smile even if you were having a bad day?

Have you ever had that one person that could make you laugh even when you didn't want to?

Have you ever had that one person that no matter what you loved with all your heart?

Now how would it feel if you saw that person with someone else making them happy and laugh and just giving them all this feeling of happiness that that special person was giving to you?

Would you confront them? Would you walk away? Would you be mad? Or sad? Would you wait till they noticed you then walk away like nothing happened? Would you go up to them and act like you weren't hurt? Would you even feel anything?

Well I don't know what you would do but I know what I would.

I would walk away slowly like I didn't even see them and see if they would have even noticed I was walking by. And because I know they wouldn't I go to the closest quite place and cry my eyes out because now I know I'm not special to the one person I care about. I would feel terrible and I know that that person wouldn't care how I felt because they wouldn't know or care to ask. But I wouldn't even want them to know I would go on with my life and act like everything is fine because apparently no one can try tell that you were stabbed in the heart if you smile, right?

Why am I even smiling if I'm not happy.......