love and heart break

I have to many emotions. I'm sorry.

I'm angry with myself for being so shitty and not trying enough.

I lie to myself to make the pain bearable.

I feel lost inside myself.

I wish I wouldn't get flashbacks of things i don't want to remember.

I wish I was better at telling people how I really feel inside, but no-one cares they're just pretending.

I wish people wouldn't leave me alone with my thoughts because I can't trust myself.

Why is so hard to find someone you can trust with your heart?

Why is it hard to trust the people in your everyday life?

Why does everything have to be so complicated in life?

Why do I feel like I have to apologize for everything I do?

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry.

I'M SORRY.

I DON'T KNOW HOW MANY TIMES I HAVE TO SAY IT.

I'M SORRY.I'M SORRY.I'M SORRY FOR EVERYTHING.

but what does saying sorry do?

What's the point of all this crap?

Does it ever get better?

Does anyone even notice the pain your in, ever?

Why do I always ask pointless questions?

Why do I care so much about you when you won't even look at me?

Why don't you care?

I love you but my love doesn't seem to matter. Does it?

I have to many emotions.

I'm sorry.