Trigger warnings: mention of suicidal thoughts, depression and anxiety.
Jareds POV:I am the insanely cool Jared Kleinman, at least that's what they think I am. I'm always trying to be the cool one but then again I'm not as cool as they think I am. I was thinking this, as I decided to listen to my favorite song, which is "Pretender" By AJR. The reason why I love this song so much is because I can cry to it and I relate so much.I use the acoustic version because it is a lot easier to cry and sing to. "Oh I'm insecure I'm insecure, I think I like what I'm sposed to" I cry and sing along with pure relatability and emotion. Sometimes I change the lyrics to like who I'm supposed to. Because I think I'm in love with my best friend. And thats not even the worst part, he's a guy. Like how am I supposed to stay the insanely cool Jared Kleinman when I'm gay. So I just cry and belt my AJR. Then Evan walks in.
Evans POV : I just saw my best friend full on ugly cry.(A/N: this is where it turns more in to a rant) I didn't know what to say so I just said the worst thing I could say to a crying person. "Y-you good bro?" Jared responded with nothing, he just kept crying. So I sat next to him and hugged him. He was happier and just got a little less teary. And my shirt got a lot of snot on it, so that's fun. He then was obviously leading into a confession of some sort by saying "uuhh... by the way I have to tell you something..." And then said something I didn't expect at all. "I think I'm in love with you". Me being the person I am said "cool" then kissed him. He was shocked but then kissed me back. The kiss made me feel warm inside and feel loved.
Jareds POV: I wasn't expecting Evan to like me back, cause I'm a mess, I bullied him, and everything. And the kiss, the kiss was the best experience in my life, I wanted it to go on for forever
Evan then was like " you want to talk about it?" I said "yeah sure" so I started talking "I'm always afraid of not being seen as the insanely cool Jared Kleinman, so I put up an act and pretend like I have the best life and I'm a straight guy who's perfect and like my parents are together and perfectly happy, I try to act like there's nothing bad going on.but so much bad has been going on that I developed a bath bomb addiction. Not like I took baths with them, I literally ate them wanting to die because I didn't deserve this spot, in reality I don't deserve anything not even you." I finally said it then and there,and it felt nice to not have to hide from one person. Evan then improvised a monologue with out stuttering, but he did cry. "You deserve me, and who cares about the biggest social spot, cause Noone at the top is happy cause of the pressure and I love you so much. I don't know how to express it properly but I do, so we will get through this together, how about that?" Yeah that seems "KiNkY" Evan responded with the most annoyed tone "glad you're happier" we laughed. I don't think I was this happy since we went to a la mode and told each other inside jokes. That day was awesome.
A/N :about 600 words seems right lol. I can type a lot on wattpad but I can't type anything for school. So if you want the paragraphs to be separate tell me and I will edit it to make it chunkier
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