The Last Letter (Rewrite)

Chapter 4

It's Monday again, and my mother still isn't home. I haven't gone back to school and I spend my days texting Adrian while she is in class and watching my cuts scab over.

It's about 3 in the morning and I decide to write Adrian a hand-written letter. I didn't text her what I was doing because I needed this to be heart felt. I needed to make it so she could keep it.

Natalie,
I'm not going back to school. I'm dropping out. I don't know if I will ever see you again. I'm failing all my classes and failing life so I'm not going to graduate anyway. But not only will I be absent from school, I won't be breathing the same air as you starting tomorrow. I love you.
-Coraline

I put the bottle of liquor in the fridge and stumble to the school to put the letter in her locker. I reach the school as the doors open again, and I walk to her locker.

I fumble with her combination but finally manage to open it and I set the letter on her shelf. I gently close the door and leave the school before anyone makes their way into the hallways.

I was casually sitting on the couch when I hear someone rapping their knuckles on the door. I don't bother saying as Adrian and Ash walk in carrying every album of Falling In Reverse, Black Veil Brides and My Chemical Romance. Both the girls are carrying comforters and movies.

Adrian runs back out to her car and bring in 10 balloons. 9 of the balloons have papers listing 798 reasons why I should live. The very last balloon has tickets to a Back Veil Brides concert.

I begin to cry but then I realize something is missing. "Guys this is... This is... W-where is Blake?" I look around and outside and he isn't there. Adrian sighs as she puts the movies and music on the counter.

"Blake is a selfish ass hat and I broke up with him for you." I look at her, confused. "Why?" Adrian hangs her head and walks over to me. "He said that you will get over whatever you're going through. Blake told me that he knew even if you didn't get over it you didn't have to guts to kill yourself. Don't worry about him, honey."

You know, if this happened about a week ago I would have broken down and spent hours crying in my room. Now, nothing. I don't have any tears to spill or screams scratching at my throat. I stand there, in the middle of my living room, staring at Adrian.

My body shuts down for a moment. I'm completely numb. I don't feel my heartbeat and my lungs stay still. He said I didn't have the guts to kill myself. Maybe, though, he's right.

I sit down on the couch and stay silent as Ash puts a movie in. After a while, my body goes to sleep and so do I.