Stone
The first thing that I can remember at all
Are the sounds of the sirens as they got louder and louder
Then the sounds as they faded and faded
I felt so faint, but that was regular
I was always faint
Maybe it was because I couldn't seem to eat anymore
Sometimes if you squint real hard
You can see the angels flying up and above
And sometimes you see the demons hiding in Hell
I couldn't see anything that night
But when I stumbled back into the light
I could only stare at my reflection
Something was wrong
Something was very wrong
It seemed so familiar to me
What the feeling of seeing yourself
With frenzied eyes and bloody clothes
And only the feeling that you had to get rid of it
So that's what I did
I erased everything
I don't remember anything
But I know enough now
It doesn't need to be visited again
That's what I thought
At least until after everything was cleaned and gone
and I walked out fresh and innocent
Only to see a girl that seemed familiar, frozen as she watched me
I knew then as I always had
That she knew everything
Her eyes, so frightened
So familiar to me
Like that of a deer about to be slaughtered
Like something worse than death was there
And I just wanted to forget again
So I went to my room
Emptied her from my mind
With a bit of the bottle
And the needle
Zoe
That night, that nightmare
It seemed like my world had crashed
He was so calm
Like it was just another mess for him
He was full of messes
But he didn't do anything
Even as he heard the sirens
The news, the frantic people
As they scoured everywhere for him
I know it was him
He did everything
But I wanted so much to forget it
I took the pain that he gave
The pain that he had caused so many
That he didn't seem to remember
Because everything was a fog
I had suffered for the ones that had been wronged
The next day
He didn't seem to care at all
He didn't even notice
That I was suffering for his wrongdoings
But that was what he always did
He wouldn't take the blame
The door rang
he was too out of it to even notice
I opened it to see a face that I remembered too much
Just like him
He should have disappeared
Should have left
I turned around
It didn't concern me at all
I needed to push both of them from my mind
I ran from the door
To my sanctuary
Maybe I'll have some peace and quiet
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Monster
PoetryStone, a druggy who can't seem to remember what happened but only knows he's covered in blood. It's all a fog in his mind. He has his own past. It can't get mixed up with the chaos that seems to be everywhere he goes. Everything's falling apart arou...