Monster

Part 8

     Zoe

Sleep seems to keep me sane

It's the only thing that can help me

Or it used to be anyways

Nowadays it's worse than staring into the darkness

When I sleep, images seem to flash

So gruesome I cannot bear to look

At what I had once before

The way HIS face was contorted

Into one of cruelty so different

From I used to see

So long ago

When everything was alright

And nobody was gone

No one was degrading

Hating themselves

And hurting others

When he would look at me with kindness

Not the cold monster standing near

With the terror of others before him

Giving him a high

That he was never off of

It was so far away

So long ago since then

That it all seems a dream

What happens now is fake

I wish it would be

I try so hard

But sleep overtakes me

And I see everything

His body standing

Over the destroyed figure of someone

That used to be

And I see his eyes turn up at me

He has this smile that chills me to the very bone

As he catches sight of me

Watching everything

Yet too late to do anything

And I hear the bloodcurdling scream

That rises from the once person

When he turns back to her

And I run

Run so far away

Like I could save myself if I was just gone

Not here anymore

And he would never catch me

But I knew he would

HE would come after me

And tear me apart

Until I am his next victim

That is piled in his fogged up mind

That he taps into every time

That he is gone from me

And I curl into a ball

And, not for the first time, I shed rivers of tears

For the angel that has had their wings clipped

And fallen straight into the arms of Satan himself

Into the depths of Hell that he can no longer pull himself out of

For he cannot fly up into the clouds anymore

His eyes hold only the pain and hopelessness left

And I feel the darkness around me

Hoping so desperately

Just so desperately

For life to come back to me

From what is so deluded

From what used to be