Monster

Part 6

     Stone

Sometimes I wish

Upon a lovely twinkling star

Only to have my hopes dashed away

To have my wish

Float into the midnight sky

And I feel like I'm dying

Suffocating in this fog

Only when it clears do I see the horror

Of what I am

But I do not want that

To everything that I don't want

So I disappear

And I feel like a ghost

Dead but forced to live

It's all my fault

I don't blame anyone

I know what I am

A Monster

That is feared

And lonely for all his life

Because somethings can't be taken back

They are part of you

I look over at the officers

It's like now

When I am clear

And I just want to fade away

Their eyes are clear

Like they haven't seen the things I have

I'm sure that they have

But they don't know anything

Like how it feels

Life draining

But it doesn't matter to them

They just want the truth

But they don't realize

The truth can kill

Blonde is staring at Angel

I look beside me

He is pale, but he's always pale

And he's staring into space

Like this was the first time that he'd heard this

I know it wasn't

Brunette looks at me

I have a witness

He talks to me like he thinks I'm the murderer already

That you were there that same night

I only shrug

He can think what he wants

I will not think about any of it

I refuse because I am weak

I cannot face it

To know exactly what it is that I know

I can't say anything

There's a gnawing growing in me

For something that I desperately crave

But can't get

Almost like I'm starving and can't live

I hate this

I just wish that life was different

That I had not seen what I did

And I was empty

Like I am now

Where were you?

Brunette keeps talking

That night?

I don't answer

I just look at Angel

He's no longer pale

He knows what to do

With him

He smiles at the officers

He was always like that

The protector for me

They seems satisfied but ask for more questions

When they need us again

They get up and the door opens down the hallway

I know which room that is

It hasn't opened for a week

Unless by her or the man that came in

She walks out of the room

She's a skeleton

But she's always been that way

Only keeping us because she had to

She looks at the officers and jumps

Babbling like an idiot, she offers refreshments

They decline, They have to leave

She seems relieved

They walk out

But not without looking back at me

And all I need is a flash

To know that I am alone in this

That they are fearful of this monster

Yet again I an left

With nothing but myself

But I am still there

Not a pile of ashes

To be dumped into the sea

And set at peace

Because I am set for Hell

And I will not be released

Nothing will be there