Let it all GO

Part 4

"So..what are you going to do now" Marisol says
to my face.
And yet again I have no answers only more questions.
"I don't know yet" I tell her. "My life is over"

"It's not over. You just have a crush and don't know what to do about it" she tells me trying to get me to understand my feelings

I know that my life isn't over. I just did something stupid. Then did something else stupid. So technically this is all my fault. I stayed away from him all summer long and I'm still doing it if I had just talked to him I wouldn't be in this position.

"Let's go to class"- Marisol
"Yeah okay"- y/n

When we got into the class room there was a class full of my friends and just other students but still no teacher. I still was lost in a world of feelings but it was time to over come all my fears starting now. I walked to my seat and tapped the shoulder of the person sitting
next to me.

"Hey y/n" he says to me. "Can we talk" I hesitantly say. "Sure we talk all the time" he says stupidly as he stares at me dreamily. "No talk in the hallway like in private" I whispered to him. He stands up and we walk together to my locker. "So what did you need to talk about" he asks me while I figure out how to put my answer into words

"I'm sorry for ghosting you all summer I just didn't know what to do" I finally started
to speak

I looked at him with worry on my face and he noticed. I was embarrassed that I couldn't even talk to a person. Normally I'm on top of the world. I'm unstoppable but not now.

"Just tell me what you have to say if there's more" he says trying to wipe the worry from my face.

"If I could do it all over maybe I'd do it different" I finally get it flow. "Maybe I wouldn't be here in this position"

"It's kinda my fault to" he speaks without a smile. You ignore him because you know that it's your turn to talk. There's no
looking back now. "Looking back is torture and it hurts to know I let you go"

I really hoping that someone is reading this because I tried so hard and this story is TERRIBLE