Chance [JinKook/KookJin]

Trauma but Love

Did I lie about updating? Yes, yes i did. its not been like 2 days so uhm sorry lmao. Here have slight bit of fluff and tiny tad angst.

TW for this chapter issss mentions of suicide and depression and self harm and slight mentions of abuse

Jungkook Focus

Jungkook was trying. He was trying so hard to stay calm here, but alas he failed. The monsters from his past took over.

You see, his past wasnt the best. For starters, his parents were homophobic. His mother....wasnt great. She had never been supportive of him. Not when he painted, his grades, and lastly...when he came out. He was abused for not getting things right.

He had become depressed by the time he was 16. By the time he was 17, he had already attempted suicide twice and cut himself several times. His grades had dropped, and he had lost a lot of his friends.

He ended up in the hospital a lot more than you would think. He'd be rushed to the hospital every time he attempted suicide, and sometimes when he would cut himself too deep. The doctors would see his bruises and cuts from the abuse, but always assume it was from the self harm. After every hospital visit, he'd stay at the hospital and also going to the psychiatric ward. From there, they would try and help him, try and help him out of his depression. He'd see a therapist on the side, his mother paying for everything. But when he came out, his mother and father disowned him. He was 19 when that happened, so do the math. Thats two years of hell.

The monsters from the past eventually took over. He tried to fight the memories and get them out, but no, it didnt work.

He could feel himself slip slowly so before he fully regressed, he frantically pressed the red button.

Jin Focus during whatever the hell i just wrote ^

Jin was just doing his daily runs around his hall. Checking up on every patient, checking their blood pressure, heart rate, temperature. He had just gotten the fourth patient done when he heard.

"Dr. Kim! Patient 343 needs you." The nurse at the desk said.

Auther here~i love the number 343 :D. its beautiful.

343, he thinks. Shit thats Kooks.

He jogs over to Jungkook's room and sees his curled up with his knees to his chest, rocking slowly.

Alright now we're caught up, they're both in the same place.

Jungkook looks up at the sound of the door opening, seeing Jin walk in.

"Hyungie..." He says softly. Seokjin is confused for a second, but slowly he realizes that at this moment, Jungkook is little.

"Its alright baby, hyungie's got you." Jin says slowly making his way to Jungkook.

Jungkook makes grabby hands at Jin and the latter slowly hugs him. "Sh. sh sh. its alright baby. i've got you." He rubs circles on his back to calm him down.

"Hy-hyungie. Im hungry hyungie. Can-can you get me food?" Jungkook says in a small voice.

Jin chuckles softly, "Of course baby."

Jin leaves for a second to grab some food for Jungkook. He was trying to hurry, because well....he wanted to make sure Jungkook didn't panic without him.

He hurriedly made his way back, carrying Jungkook's favorite foods.

He slowly opens the door, finding that Jungkook has calmed down for the most part, he wasn't sobbing or crying. He was still quite panicked, but not too much.

Jungkook wasn't little anymore at this moment, but Jin didn't know that.

He walks towards him and puts the food on the lap tray.

He looks towards Jungkook and says, "Here. Hyungie brought you food baby."

"Hyungie feed me?" Jungkook says quietly with puppy eyes.

"You're such a baby." He teases.

"But im your baby." He says with a smile.

Jin sighs. Of course Kookie still thought that. Jin has always been his caregiver, and I mean always. He took care of himself before Seokjin came along. He cant let Jungkook know that he is no longer Jin's baby.

Jin smiles slightly saying, "Yes, you're my baby." Jin brings a spoonful of soup up to Jungkooks mouth, feeding him slowly. "Eat up."

Jin feeds him for a while before Jungkook speaks up. "Hyungie 'm full."

Jin stops feeding him. "Alright baby." He says while wiping the sides of Jungkook's mouth with a napkin.

"Hyungie kisses?" He asks.

Jin sighs again. "Baby you know I cant."

"Bu-but hyungie why? Hyungie I want kissies. Please?" He begs.

Jin sighs and gives in, peppering his face with kisses. But, again, just a reminder, Jungkook...he isnt little right now. He came back to big headspace while Jin was gone. He knows whats going on. Its not Kookie right now. Its Jungkook.

As Jin is giving him kisses, Jungkook's hands are slowly making their way to Jin's face. He cups his face and slams his lips onto Jin's.

The kiss isnt lustful. Its slow and passionate. Jungkook kisses him slowly, Jin taking a second but kisses back hesitantly.

Jin comes to his senses and pushes him away. "Im sorry Jungkook. We cant do this. Not now, not never."

"Ji-jin. Jin no. I-please take me back." Jungkooks begs him.

Jin looks at him and sighs. "We'll talk about this after work. Alright?"

Jungkook nods hurriedly. "Yes yes yes please."

Jin gives him a curt nod and walks out, leaving Jungkook smiling hopefully on his bed.

YES FINALLY AN UPDATE. IT ONLY TOOK ME TWO DAYS BUT YAHHHHHHHH. I LOVED THIS CHAPTER HONESTLY. VERY FLUFFY AND BEAUTIFULLLL. 

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