Chim - Freedom When I'm With You

* Chapter Thirty Four *

Authors POV:

Both women have been making light conversation over their meals, exchanging glances and small smiles throughout and just really enjoying one another's company.

"I'm so happy Kimba." Cheryl tells the blonde as she moves her chair around the table so she can sit next to her girlfriend.

"You make me so happy too Chez." Kimberley agrees placing her hand on Cheryl's bare thigh.

Cheryl leans into Kimberley, resting her head on her shoulder and she plays with the ends of her soft hair, both of them feeling nothing less than loved in this moment. The candles are flickering away behind them, soft music fills the background and both of their hearts beat in time.

"I can't wait for my future with you Kimberley, I can't wait to spend every day with you, have children with you and experience every single little thing with you. You've already made me feel the most loved I've ever felt babe." Cheryl tells Kimberley softly.

"You mean everything to me Cheryl, you always have and always will... which reminds me actually..." Kimberley reaches for her clutch bag and pulls out the third letter. "This is for you."

"Aw babe, me third letter? Are you sure?"

"Of course." Kimberley nods and passes the letter to Cheryl. Placing her soft hand on her bare thigh again making the goosebumps erupt all over the Geordies skin.

"It is a letter but it's also more of a diary entry... you'll understand when you read it."

"Ok babe, here goes."

Yesterday we went shopping for the perfect outfit for your first date with Ashley and you looked beautiful in every dress you tried on. You have the most perfect body for any outfit, your bronzed skin glows in any colour and any fabric clings onto your curves.

You've always been great with style, you know exactly what suits you but I'd think you'd still look stunning in a black bin bag. Every time you came out of the changing rooms in a new dress my knees would get weaker and weaker at the sight of you and I've always wondered if you've ever noticed the way I look at you?

I'd love to tell you how adorably sexy I find you but that wouldn't be right now that you've met someone and I'm still with Justin but all I ever think about is telling you the truth but I'll just have to write it here instead. You're so beautiful.

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It's the next day now and I met you for coffee this morning, you were radiant and looked so care free. I just wish that was caused by me. You told me about your perfect date and as much as I don't want to hear it, I'll always listen because that's what best friends do.

I wish I could have sat across from you and stared at you for my whole evening, I wish I could have softly held your hand throughout the meal, tucked your beautiful curls behind your ears when they fell forward and kissed you at every chance I had.

You deserve the entire World and one day I hope to give you it, I'll wait as long as I have to but I will also torture myself for as long as I have to if you really are happy with Ashley. I don't want to be jealous but I can't help it, you're everything I want and more but for now I'll stay with Justin and torture myself from a distance.

I truly hope you're happy babe.

Kimba.

Cheryl turns into Kimberley and holds on her tightly never wanting this moment to end.

"I love reading these letters babe but it kills us knowing you felt like that for so long."

"It was worth it when I thought you were happy with him. I would never want to ruin your happiness."

"I know babe...I've just got one question?"

"What is it Chez?"

"Didn't you ever feel guilty about your feelings for me when you were with Justin?"

"Not really no." Kimberley says as she starts laughing.

"What are yous laughing at?" Cheryl asks suspiciously.

"Justin's gay!"

"WHAT?!" Cheryl shouts, earning looks from the two waiters by the bar.

"It was all a front babe! You, Nicola, Nadine and Sarah all had boyfriends. I couldn't be the inly one in the band without one. Justin always knew about my feelings for you, at first we tried to be together and a couple of months in we realised that we could never be anything more than good friends. One night he questioned me on my sexuality and we got chatting and we both sort of came out to each other."

"I can't believe it Kimba, I really can't."

The conversation is interrupted as the waiter saunters over. "Are you ready to leave ladies?"

"Yes. We're ready, thank you for doing this for us." Cheryl thanks them appreciatively and hands them both a generous tip. "Please don't mention this to anyone, especially the media."

"We wouldn't. That would be extremely unprofessional but um... I'd just thought I'd pre-warn you... the paps are surrounding the entire building."

"Fucking fantastic." Cheryl mutters under her breath and takes Kimberley's hand as they make their way towards the exit.

They reach the doors and the waiter wasn't joking, there's swarms of them blocking every direction.

Kimberley decides to take the lead as she's a little bit bigger than Cheryl and she knows how much they make her girlfriends life a misery.

"Cheryl, Kimberley, over here!"

"All the single ladies?" Another questions.

"Kimberley are you Lezza for Chezza?"

This question gets both girls to stop in their tracks right in the middle of the crowd, they both turn to face each other and squeeze each other's hands simultaneously. They share a look that only the two of them understand.

"Too right I am!" Kimberley shouts back setting the cameramen into a massive frenzy. 

The flashing lights surround them as she pulls her brunette girlfriend in and places a sloppy kiss to her lips causing both of them to burst out laughing.

Kimberley pulls Cheryl into her side and protects her from the crowd of men, directing both of them in any direction of escape. Once they see an opening they both run towards it and carrying on running down the path together like two giggling school girls.

"I can't believe you did that! So much for our bubble!" Cheryl shouts over the London traffic once they both catch their breath.

"I don't want to hide how I feel about you anymore babe."

"Me neither." Cheryl agrees looking up into her girlfriends eyes as they continue their walk through the streets of London back towards the car.

"Do you think we should announce it then?" Kimberley asks.

"I can't wait to tell the World that Kimberley Jane Walsh is me beautiful girlfriend." Cheryl squeals. "And I don't give a fuck what anyone else thinks either!"

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They finally reach the car and Cheryl pulls out her phone to message Sarah.

We're heading back now, thank you for playing Cupid once again Hardcore. Maybe I should start calling you Softcore instead. C. Xx

She hits the send button, throws her phone back into her bag and turns the keys making the engine roar to life. She once again places her hand on Kimberley's thigh like she did on the journey here and traces patterns along her leg causing Kimberley's centre to awaken.

Both women knew now that tonight was the night.