Camdyn's Speech

"I can't keep lying to myself, Regino. I don't want to have to be married to your sister or any woman for that matter. I don't want to have to glance around before I kiss you or hug you just because I'm worried someone will see us. I don't want to pretend that my life is going alright when it's not. I don't want to hide what we have together from everyone. I want to be able to spend my life with you without being terrified that somehow someone will find out," The ebony-haired man paused to take a deep though shaky inhale. His whole body shook and tears had begun to well in his icy blue eyes. "I've thought about leaving all this and holing myself up in the woods so I don't have to be scared anymore. I've thought about how much easier my life would be if I didn't love you. I've thought about how much better I would feel if I could just love women like everyone else. I don't want to think about it because I love you more than anything. You make my life great but so much worse. It's like every time I'm with you another stone is added to my back and I don't think I can take it anymore; I'm going to break eventually Regino. It hurts having to lie to everyone all the time. I just want to tell everyone about us. I want to be able to not be scared when you visit. I want to wake up with you. I don't want to hide anymore," He spoke with his hands, voice wavering as he stared at his lover and expressed every doubt he'd had over the past few months. He felt faint and beyond tired, he wished he could've kept his mouth shut while at the same time he felt overwhelmed with relief. He took a few steps back so he could sit on the end of his bed and bury his face in his hands as tears spilled down from his eyes and into his palms.