the garden smp

spotify status

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ashlyn - she/they omnisexual, poly

bonnie - ?

gavin - he/him trans bisexual, poly

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"alright! that'll be the stream for today! thank you all for joining bonnie, ash and i in today's stream! it was a bit longer than usual, i hope you all enjoyed it. i'll see you in the next stream, enjoy the rest of your day or night!" gavin says as he presses the 'end stream' button. they hung up the discord call, soon all three of them were gathered in their kitchen. "thanks for staying on so long, it ran longer than i thought, sorry for keeping you guys up for so long." gavin said as he took three waters out of the fridge and placed them on the counter. bonnie glanced at the microwave time, reading 1:58 am in blue lettering. "it's fine, i had fun. i'm not as tired as i thought i'd be, i might alt stream in a bit if i feel up to it." she responded. ashlyn smiled as they responded. "text me if you do, i'll join for a bit." bonnie nodded. "well, i'm off for now, i think i'm gonna sketch for a bit, maybe i'll stream it with no face cam on my alt." she contemplates it before leaving. "bonnie, can i ask you something really quick?" gavin asked.

"of course." she nodded. "you seemed a little spacey on stream, are you okay?" he asked with a concerned look. "u-um, yeah just, been anxious recently, i don't really know why." bonnie tripped over her own words. "i'm here to talk if you ever need to bon." he held her hand from across the counter. it felt as though her heart skipped a beat, the reason was unknown to her, for now at least. "t-thanks." she barely stuttered out before taking her water to her room. she shut the door and sat at her desk, powering on her pc.

bonnie opened discord to see a dm from ashlyn, reading "im gonna stream on my alt for an hour or so, do u wanna join" she replied with an agreement, soon being met with the chime of ash's call. she picked up to hear them say "hi, alright, so i was thinking we could just hangout on stream, i'll put up my drawing tab in the corner, we can have face cams on and maybe you can tweet for the viewers to ask us questions." "a-alright." she agreed. "before we start, you look like you saw a ghost, are you good?" ashlyn asked. it took bonnie a second to respond. "yeah, just uh, a little anxious right now, you can start don't worry about me." they nodded, soon enough the notification for ash's stream appeared on her phone. it read, 'fire.ash is live! sketching stream with bonnie !!! Q & A' "the notif went out ash, they should be here soon." bonnie said as she pulled up her stream on another tab. a minute or two later she switched from the 'starting soon' screen to our facecams with a sketching cam in the bottom corner.

bonnie pov

"hey everyone! i'm here with bonnie, as you can see. sorry for this stream to be so late. we'll be here hanging out for a bit! i'll be sketching while we answer some questions, make sure to go to bon's recent tweet and ask us questions!" they said as they started a rough sketch. "wait let me tweet first." i laughed as i started typing out a tweet. 'hey, ash and i are live on their alt ! (link) reply to this tweet with questions for us to answer on stream !' soon the replies flooded in. "start whenever bon." ashlyn said, after a few moments, i started. " okay. the first question is, 'hey bonnie and ash,' hello!" "hey!" they both waved to their face cams. " 'do you guys have any important streams planned soon?" she finished. "hm, as of right now, i don't think so. sorry if that was a let down." ash laughed lightly.

"alright, 'do you guys have crushes/celeb crushes? if you don't mind sharing ofc'." i laughed "maybe? i don't really know yet." ash gasped, "you better text me who it is right now."

"no! do you like anyone ash?" she giggled. "uh, a little yeah." she paused as i chuckled. "check dms" i heard a small ping and opened ash's dm. it read out ' i kinda like gavin lol' "really!?" i laughed some more. i typed back. 'we're talking about that after stream or i will come into ur room and rock ur shit' ash started cackling. "i know you did not just say you're gonna rock my shit." the chat was going batshit with the lack of context. 'god their laugh is contagious' i thought to myself, no after thought of what i was thinking. i couldn't help but laugh along with them. once i regained a bit of composure, "okay, okay, they said their crush and i said that we're going to talk about it after stream or i'll rock their shit." i said in between laughs.

the stream went on like this for another half hour before there was a knock at my door. "wait hold on gavin just knocked on my door." i said as i took my headphones off before going to answer the door. i opened it to see a tired, angry, gavin standing there with his arms crossed. "both of you need to shut the ever living fuck up before i rock both of your shits." i couldn't help but giggle. he walked away as i closed the door. i put my headphones back on to hear ashlyn laughing her ass off again. "i feel like i was just told off by my dad or some shit." i started laughing along. i looked over to ashlyn's chat to see everyone spamming 'CLIP IT', the fact that my door is visible in my background makes the clip better. "i'm sure we'll see that all over twitter and tiktok." ash noted between cackles.

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after another hour, ash ended the stream. after they hung up, "get ur ass in here right now bitch" i laughed after i sent it. "damn okay aggressive" ash replied before i could hear them leave their room and come to her room. "hey bestie" ash joked. "hi, so, you like gavin?" i asked. "yeah, kinda." she laughed nervously. "i-i don't really plan on telling him." they sat down on my bed, i spun around in my desk chair to face them. "well, there's no need to tell him yet, you can always wait to decide further. but speaking from experience, i know how horrible it feels to bottle up feelings." they nodded along. "though i completely agree, it's just that i don't want to make it awkward between us, and i can't really tell if the feelings are platonic or romantic." she held her head in her hands. "i understand that, it sucks to not be able to differentiate. i'm going through that currently too," she interrupted. "if you don't mind me asking, who? is it someone i know?"

"i-uh, yes you know them but i don't wanna share who." i said as i started fidgeting with my fingers. "understandable." they took a long pause. "well, sorry to get all sappy." she laughed. "i'm gonna go to bed before i start saying stupid shit i don't want you to hear, good night. thank you for this talk it really helped me." they said as they came over to hug me. "i never say it enough, i love you." i gasped. "t-that caught me off guard." i laughed nervously. "l-love you too, goodnight." she smiled and left my room. " holy fuck" i said quietly. my head was soon swarmed with thoughts, 'do i really like both of my best friends? what if they don't like me back? what even am i? i liked it when he held my hand, and i really liked it when she told me she loved me with a hug. what the fuck do i do?' my mind felt like it was being ran over on a race track, just over, and over, and over again.

with my mind so busy, i wasn't thinking clear. i put in my ear buds and pulled up the sad playlist, to hopefully help my thoughts. i pressed shuffle, only to hear 4am by girl in red. song after song, making my thoughts only worsen. i had disconnected my mind with the rest of the world, only tuning into the music, when a text from ash. 'dude are you okay ? did you forget your spotify is public ?' oh shit, oh shit, oh shit. i typed back. 'fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck i forgot about them i was lost in thoughts not thinking about it i don't want them to worry oh fuck what should i do ?' i saw her text bubble appear. 'maybe say something about it on ur alt ? dude i dont know, maybe address it if it comes up or on stream ?' they text back almost immediately.

'thanks ig, goodnight <3' i texted back. they hearted my message. i decided to scroll through twitter. 'did you guys see bonnie's spotify ? she was listening to sad music :( i hope she's okay' numerous tweets confused about what went on, i decided to tweet about it. i started typing it out. 'hey all, i wanted to just talk about what had gone on with my spotify. i'm fine no need to worry, i just needed an outlet to deal with my current feelings. <3' i sent the tweet on my alt account. the replies were filling with happy messages like 'hope you're feeling better !!' or 'glad to hear you're okay' i felt bad about it and causing my followers worry for some stupid feelings. then i saw ash's reply, 'can assure she's fine !! feel better bon <3' " i swear she knows exactly what to do and say to make my heart beat." i said quietly. almost an hour after i saw gavin's reply to my alt tweet. "feel better !! me and ash are always here to talk if needed, don't forget it <33' my breath got locked in my chest when i read it, they both make my heart jump.

maybe i do like them.
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an: i don't really like this chapter that much but i hope you enjoyed !